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Sapphire198 · August 2015

I am in recovery from anorexia nervosa. I am struggling a lot, so I'm trying to get fit instead of starving myself. I've used MyFitnessPal before when I was sick. I'm trying it again now in hopes that seeing my activity and intake properly logged will make me feel less horrible about my weight-restored body. If anyone else here has an eating disorder, whether you're in recovery or not, I'd love to talk to you!

Byronic_Ryu · September 2015

I just joined the eating disorder support group. I am someone who had an active eating disorder when I was about 11 years old. I am lucky that it was brief but I still have a lot of issues revolving around food. I hope you come to peace with your body.

mccindy72 · September 2015

I struggled with bulimia as a teenager, so I do understand what you're going through. MFP is a good tool for tracking calories to make sure you are getting enough calories. Just set your goals for weight gain, and it will set goals for you to ensure you're getting enough. Keep reaching out for help, that's important.

SLLRunner · September 2015

Sapphire198 wrote: »

I am in recovery from anorexia nervosa. I am struggling a lot, so I'm trying to get fit instead of starving myself. I've used MyFitnessPal before when I was sick. I'm trying it again now in hopes that seeing my activity and intake properly logged will make me feel less horrible about my weight-restored body. If anyone else here has an eating disorder, whether you're in recovery or not, I'd love to talk to you!

Sapphire, you are not alone. In my late teens and twenties, I suffered with bulimia. I was really sick with the disease when I found out my mom had cancer when I was 22, and it got worse when she died when I was 23. I have been through treatment and have not practiced in almost 30 years.

Just remember....you are never alone.

Itchula · September 2015

I finally admitted that I binge and purge. The doctor switched my meds to help with this. I have family triggers and and stress triggers. I controlled it all week, but almost made a major mistake today. Luckily, I was able to cancel the food order and have a healthy snack. In PA, there were no support groups in my area. I'm in NYC now, but not sure I should go. I don't do it all the time. But I guess doing it once is bad, right? The last two weeks I've used MFP and started eating healthy and it made me not want to b/p, but this week is just getting harder and harder as it goes on. Are any of you in group sessions or just used therapists/psych docs to get through it? I feel like a pig. It's not like my trigger is at the bar. It's everywhere. And I still need food to live. I don't know if I should talk to my BF about it... I don't want him to think of me as broken or gross. I mean, he knows and he's supportive and also worried about me.

mccindy72 · September 2015

KimAqui20 wrote: »

I finally admitted that I binge and purge. The doctor switched my meds to help with this. I have family triggers and and stress triggers. I controlled it all week, but almost made a major mistake today. Luckily, I was able to cancel the food order and have a healthy snack. In PA, there were no support groups in my area. I'm in NYC now, but not sure I should go. I don't do it all the time. But I guess doing it once is bad, right? The last two weeks I've used MFP and started eating healthy and it made me not want to b/p, but this week is just getting harder and harder as it goes on. Are any of you in group sessions or just used therapists/psych docs to get through it? I feel like a pig. It's not like my trigger is at the bar. It's everywhere. And I still need food to live. I don't know if I should talk to my BF about it... I don't want him to think of me as broken or gross.

I do think that you should go to the support group. Admitting that you had a food order is a great start, and I'm glad you figured it out and cancelled it in time to avoid a binge. You saved yourself. And you know that you are still in danger and need help, so yes, you definitely need that support group.
It's tricky when it comes to the boyfriend - not knowing how long you've been together or how serious your relationship is. If you love and trust each other, then yes, you probably should talk to him, because you should trust that love he has for you. Secrets in a relationship are never a good thing, and neither is building a relationship on lies or hiding things from each other. Just be honest and ask for support. You aren't 'broken' or 'gross', you're just human, and no one is perfect.

PinkPixiexox · September 2015

I am so glad to hear that you are in recovery.

Fit and healthy is the way to approach things and I'm happy that you have learnt to have a better mindset.

Please be careful, sensible and aware of how you feel throughout your fitness journey. You'll have a lot of support here, that's for sure.

I was never diagnosed with anorexia but I had some very suspicious habits - I won't mention them here because some are distressing and this isn't the place - but i'm happy to be free of these nasty ways. If you do need support - I am more than happy to listen and to help you.

Best of luck.

Itchula · September 2015

mccindy72 wrote: »

KimAqui20 wrote: »

I finally admitted that I binge and purge. The doctor switched my meds to help with this. I have family triggers and and stress triggers. I controlled it all week, but almost made a major mistake today. Luckily, I was able to cancel the food order and have a healthy snack. In PA, there were no support groups in my area. I'm in NYC now, but not sure I should go. I don't do it all the time. But I guess doing it once is bad, right? The last two weeks I've used MFP and started eating healthy and it made me not want to b/p, but this week is just getting harder and harder as it goes on. Are any of you in group sessions or just used therapists/psych docs to get through it? I feel like a pig. It's not like my trigger is at the bar. It's everywhere. And I still need food to live. I don't know if I should talk to my BF about it... I don't want him to think of me as broken or gross.

I do think that you should go to the support group. Admitting that you had a food order is a great start, and I'm glad you figured it out and cancelled it in time to avoid a binge. You saved yourself. And you know that you are still in danger and need help, so yes, you definitely need that support group.
It's tricky when it comes to the boyfriend - not knowing how long you've been together or how serious your relationship is. If you love and trust each other, then yes, you probably should talk to him, because you should trust that love he has for you. Secrets in a relationship are never a good thing, and neither is building a relationship on lies or hiding things from each other. Just be honest and ask for support. You aren't 'broken' or 'gross', you're just human, and no one is perfect.

Thanks. That was a nice response and I needed that. It's so strange to find comfort in strangers, but I needed someone. I was looking around on some other threads and they get nasty. Thanks for being positive. I worked a long night shift and should get to bed before I get hungry again (haha). I'm going to look for a group when I get up. Thanks again.

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