Not Since High School in the late 80's....
BigBoneSista
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I haven't been below 200 lbs since the late 80's. I am officially 198.4 lbs today. I'm excited about the number because of the overall meaning to me. Even though I've been fighting diligently to lose weight over the years that little voice in the back of my mind has always been a naysayer. Its put me down, beat me down emotionally, caused me to quit so many times...it has really abuse me mentally and emotionally. BUT! This last time I dug in my heals. I had to realize that the voice was my fear of change, it was my fear of failure, it was me attacking myself. I thought I was surpose to love me so why am I my own worse enemy?
I knew that was what I needed to find out so I started to confront the side of me that was trying to see me stumble. When my fear went on attack I told myself that I would be ok because there is nothing to be afraid of. I need to be healthy to save my life and to give my kids a mother that they deserve. When failure started to show its ugly little face I just told myself there would be many bumps in the road and sometimes I may stumble and sometimes I might fall, but as long as I brush it off and stood...I would make it. Sometimes I even cursed myself out because the attacks would come on stronger and I had to be just as strong. I had to get mad in order to win this battle. And believe me the battle is forging on. The war has yet to be won. But I'm on my way to victory!
I'm still focus & I'm still moving. I have my days like everyone else but because of all of you...those of you that are my friends and those of you that post on this site....you all keep me going. From stories of failures and rising the next day to fight again to stories of much deserved success....healthy information and debates.....all of these things have help me to continue on to my goal to reach my healthy body weight.
I still go by my body fat %, but it was just nice to see a old friend named one hundred and something!!
So atlas I say thank you my friends..those known to me personally and unknown. You are the best support system a person can have. :flowerforyou:
I knew that was what I needed to find out so I started to confront the side of me that was trying to see me stumble. When my fear went on attack I told myself that I would be ok because there is nothing to be afraid of. I need to be healthy to save my life and to give my kids a mother that they deserve. When failure started to show its ugly little face I just told myself there would be many bumps in the road and sometimes I may stumble and sometimes I might fall, but as long as I brush it off and stood...I would make it. Sometimes I even cursed myself out because the attacks would come on stronger and I had to be just as strong. I had to get mad in order to win this battle. And believe me the battle is forging on. The war has yet to be won. But I'm on my way to victory!
I'm still focus & I'm still moving. I have my days like everyone else but because of all of you...those of you that are my friends and those of you that post on this site....you all keep me going. From stories of failures and rising the next day to fight again to stories of much deserved success....healthy information and debates.....all of these things have help me to continue on to my goal to reach my healthy body weight.
I still go by my body fat %, but it was just nice to see a old friend named one hundred and something!!
So atlas I say thank you my friends..those known to me personally and unknown. You are the best support system a person can have. :flowerforyou:
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Wow! You are an inspiration!0
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Wow!!! You look beautiful! Great job! Keep going you can do it!!!0
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Great job! You look wonderful! Keep at it ...18 pounds is not much farther to go ...you are almost there!0
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Wow...congratulations!! It is interesting that a lot of us on here have the same thoughts, fears, hopes. People like you posting on these boards inspire me and keep me going on this journey even when I have had a bad day.0
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You look amazing!! Thank you for posting this -- it is just what I needed this morning! I had hit a mini-plateau, and I've been beating myself up over it. I needed the reminder to "pick myself up" and get mad!! Thank you, thank you, thank you!! Have a great weekend0
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True grit.0
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You look beautiful! Great post.0
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wow you are awesome I hope you know that it's folks like you who keep me trying to get down to my goal wt great job thankyou
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Congratulations on pulling through and making it into the 100's!!
Way to go ^-^ ^-^0 -
You are an inspiration...and you look fantastic!0
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Congratulations on making it to Onederland! You look beautiful!0
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You look amazing!! way to go:drinker:0
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You look gorgeous and confident! I know you're thrilled! Way to go!!!0
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I've got to say...Pretty Darn Hot Looking. You are amazing.0
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Congratulations and keep up the good work. You look amazing.0
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What a truly inspirational story. Thanks for sharing. You look amazing.0
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YOU LOOK AMAZING!!!!
Congratulations and thank you for your honest post - sometimes when I look in the mirror all I can see are my failures.
Success stories like yours are so motivating - they encourage me to keep exercising, keep logging, keep caring about my future health!
Thank you for posting, you should be REALLY proud of yourself!0 -
You look amazing!! Congratz on getting below the 2's!!0
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Congratulations! I see the majority of posters commenting on how good you look - and you do look great, but more importantly I'm sure you feel great. Your accomplishment is a true mile stone and the long term health benefits are staggering. You have probably just added several years to your life.0
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Wow. You look fantastic! Being below 200 is a huge goal for me too. I totally understand how important that number is. You did GREAT!0
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So inspirational!! You should be very proud of yourself.0
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Lookin good!!!0
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Love, love, love this!!!! I'm so proud of you for being the warrior that you are! Your story is very inspiring to me and I'm lucky to call you friend. Congrats on your success so far and I KNOW you will reach every future goal!
:flowerforyou: Shanna0 -
Your hard work is paying off! So proud of you and you look great0
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You are such an inspiration Desz!! Thank you for posting!! I began to tear up as I read because I understand how you felt. I have those feelings myself. I'm so happy for you and proud of you. Seeing your success helps me know I can be successful too!!! You look great!!! All your hard work and overcoming is really paying off!!0
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You look GORGEOUS!0
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I had to realize that the voice was my fear of change, it was my fear of failure, it was me attacking myself.
And these words are exactly why I know you will reach your goal--and beyond--and you will never go back to that unhealthy place you were in before this journey started. What a powerful testimony you have shared. You are beautiful and strong and your words are going to help someone else understand the true road to success. Thank you for sharing this! And BRAVO on your success.0 -
Thank you everyone. Once again your kind words are my fuel to push on. I feel good and I'm happy to say that my outside is finally matching my inside....I feel beautiful finally.
Ok yall got me crying over here again. I cried on the scale this morning and I'm crying now. Puffy eyes tomorrow lol0 -
Welcome to Onederland. You look fantastic!
Thanks for putting into words what many of us feel!0 -
CONGRATULATIONS my friend! YOU HAVE DONE SO WELL! I am soo proud of you! and there is truth in your words!0
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