Once upon a time . . .

tross0924
tross0924 Posts: 909 Member
edited September 28 in Motivation and Support
Once upon a time someone told me I was fat. That hurt, mostly because I believed them.

I didn't want them to know that it hurt so I sucked that pain inside where it did bad things. Soon when I saw myself in the mirror I'd hear that voice saying "you're fat". Soon it was all I heard weather I was looking in the mirror or not. And not long after that it was my own voice. Someone else put a thought in my head and it became my own horribly destructive voice.

I've lost a lot of weight now. I've still got some to go, but despite all the people telling my I look great, for some d@mn reason I don't chose to listen to them, I chose to listen to the voice inside my head saying your fat.

Well, I've had enough! Today, I disavow ownership of that voice. It's not me and it never was.

Today, I'm choosing to believe the people who tell me I look great! I'd much rather believe the words from loved ones then some random jerks.

Today, I suck in the joy and drive that *kitten* whose been crushing the life out of me for the last 20 years out of my soul forever! Because today is the day I make it, and today is going to be great!

For all of you out there that have a little voice inside your head, know that you don't have to believe it. Even if you do have some extra weight on you, you are not defined by that weight, or at least you don't have to be. You ARE sweet, kind, caring, beautiful, and loved by many, you most certainly ARE NOT a number on a scale or voice in your head. So make today great, and next time you hear that voice KNOW without a doubt it's wrong.

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  • cem2168
    cem2168 Posts: 205 Member
    This almost brought me to tears! So inspirational.... Thank you so much and congratulations! Its so great that you are able to shut that little voice up!!!
  • kristarablue
    kristarablue Posts: 702 Member
    Oh my goodness, I have tears in my eyes. This is the most beautiful post I have ever read. I am incredibly proud of you. You are amazing and beautiful and this has nothing to do with how great you look. I hope to one day have the courage you have and the ability to get those voices out of my head. Your strength and positive attitude aspires me to be amazing. Thank you for sharing.
  • Bigmomma0u812
    Bigmomma0u812 Posts: 118
    I have the voice of a bitter ex boyfriend. He told me upon leaving that I would do nothing in my life but "get fatter and fatter just like your mom". Granted my mom was heavy but she was still a beautiful woman. It's been 16 years and I still hear that voice. I always pray when I go home that I won't run into him because I don't want him to see that he was right, that I have continually gotten fatter over the years.I get mad at myself because I can't let his damaging comments go no matter how hard I try.

    I hope that one of these days I can get to the mental place that you are! I really enjoyed your post.
  • Metorks
    Metorks Posts: 37
    I have the voice of a bitter ex boyfriend. He told me upon leaving that I would do nothing in my life but "get fatter and fatter just like your mom". Granted my mom was heavy but she was still a beautiful woman. It's been 16 years and I still hear that voice. I always pray when I go home that I won't run into him because I don't want him to see that he was right, that I have continually gotten fatter over the years.I get mad at myself because I can't let his damaging comments go no matter how hard I try.

    I hope that one of these days I can get to the mental place that you are! I really enjoyed your post.

    Just start off slow and steady, and eventually you'll get to that place. =D
  • coultesr
    coultesr Posts: 51 Member
    Thanks for this post! I am still struggling with the mental part of this experience. I still have a little way to go but I weigh less than I have my entire teen/adult life. Your triumph through this is inspiration to me to work past my own self doubt.
  • tross0924
    tross0924 Posts: 909 Member
    Thanks for this post! I am still struggling with the mental part of this experience. I still have a little way to go but I weigh less than I have my entire teen/adult life. Your triumph through this is inspiration to me to work past my own self doubt.

    Glad I could help a little bit. I weigh less now than I have since 11th grade too. It's a nice feeling, and it definite helps that voice shut up. :-)
  • Fesse
    Fesse Posts: 611
    That was very moving!! I feel like you spoke my words. Thank you for putting that out there for others to read, if you can only change one person's mind you've done a wonderful thing.

    Congratulations of your weight loss and great efforts!! Cheers friend.
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