The nightmare

kazho2015
kazho2015 Posts: 1 Member
edited November 2024 in Motivation and Support
hi everyone,

I need help. Exactly one year ago I started going on a diet. I'm 170 (5'7)and I weighted 84 kilos. The first three months went by very well and I was really healthy eating around 1200 calories per day and by end of December I was 68 kilos. Then, my weight loss was slowing down. So I started cutting calories more and more until I reached a point I would only have an apple or a cup of broccoli in the day. By March 21, I was 60 kilos. Everyone was shocked by my weight loss and congratulated me. I was super happy. However, I still thought I don't look good enough so I kept going on the diet. I reached a point in May where I would only drink water. By end of May, I was hospitalized and the doctors told me that I lacked all nutritions. So, I needed to slowly stop the diet. However, as I started stopping the diet, I gained weight back, I got very depressed and developed binge eating disorder. My body was never full and whenever I would eat I would eat until I was about to vomit. It took me about 3 months to actually naturalize my eating habit. But by mid of August I was back at 73. I'm trying to actually eat clean and have a healthy life style. But sometimes I have the voices in my head back again, telling me that I don't look good or that I will never look the way I want. I would appreciate any help or support

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  • 6502programmer
    6502programmer Posts: 515 Member
    Did you receive any recommendations for OP counseling for the ED as part of your discharge from May?
  • Annie_01
    Annie_01 Posts: 3,096 Member
    You truly do need face-to-face help from a counselor that is trained in eating disorders. The majority of us here on MFP are not qualified to give you advice.

    Do you have a support system...family/friends...that can give you support?

    Please...if your doctor didn't arrange for after care...go back and talk to him/her...or seek out another doctor that can help you.
  • WildePillar
    WildePillar Posts: 120 Member
    kazho2015 wrote: »
    hi everyone,

    I need help. Exactly one year ago I started going on a diet. I'm 170 (5'7)and I weighted 84 kilos. The first three months went by very well and I was really healthy eating around 1200 calories per day and by end of December I was 68 kilos. Then, my weight loss was slowing down. So I started cutting calories more and more until I reached a point I would only have an apple or a cup of broccoli in the day. By March 21, I was 60 kilos. Everyone was shocked by my weight loss and congratulated me. I was super happy. However, I still thought I don't look good enough so I kept going on the diet. I reached a point in May where I would only drink water. By end of May, I was hospitalized and the doctors told me that I lacked all nutritions. So, I needed to slowly stop the diet. However, as I started stopping the diet, I gained weight back, I got very depressed and developed binge eating disorder. My body was never full and whenever I would eat I would eat until I was about to vomit. It took me about 3 months to actually naturalize my eating habit. But by mid of August I was back at 73. I'm trying to actually eat clean and have a healthy life style. But sometimes I have the voices in my head back again, telling me that I don't look good or that I will never look the way I want. I would appreciate any help or support

    First, you have to realize that you are not alone in this. The path of your weight loss / binging is extremely common among people who suffer from eating disorders. The thing is, you want to avoid having the pattern continue, and that often takes therapy because you have to change your entire relationship with food. I suggest doing counseling sooner rather than later. This can be a vicious cycle and professional assistance may be really helpful. Good luck!

  • jgnatca
    jgnatca Posts: 14,464 Member
    You are currently at the top of the range for normal weight, which is better than where I am. Learning how to manage an eating disorder is out of the scope of MFP and you will need some regular counselling support for that.

    I suggest you use MFP only to make sure you are eating enough every day. And stop weighing yourself.

    I think you would look better with some weight lifting and some recomp work which is again focused on maintaining your weight.
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