Remember the day you said enough is enough?????

January of 1999 - I was 220lbs and would get breathless running up the stairs and couldn't believe that 13 steps could make me so winded! It's taken over 11 years, but I hit my goal of losing 60lbs and am now working on my next small goal of losing another 15.

10/31/08

Sunday March 6th 2011!! I have to say I will never forget that day!!

the day i joined mfp 15th jan 2011 at 142 pounds!

mine is just this last saturday... 6/4/11.

i waited all week to go to the farmer's market and buy some fresh herbs and flowers. my mom, husband, and a friend went with me. it was 100 degrees outside, and i MELTED. i mean sweat was dripping off of my face and back. i have never been so embarrassed. i could barely keep up with their leisurely stroll and i was out of breath. i suddenly became so incredibly self-conscious.. i have NEVER felt that low about myself before.

i was wearing exercise clothes (because i cannot fit into my cute summer clothes this year) and everyone else was so stinking cute. i was fighting back tears/ panic attacks when my husband jokingly said to me "the sweat stain on your back looks like Mickey Mouse!' it took all i had not to cry. i wanted to dig a hole and hide.

this is not like me. i have always been so confident and happy. i WILL fix this before i watch any more of my saturdays end up like this. i want to be that beautiful woman i see inside of myself

We were making plans for our trip to Utah to visit family and I don't know what happened. I decided I just didn't want to be fat anymore. I missed running and wanted to do that again. I was feed up being 'fat' mom and wife. It was April 23, 2011, the next day I found MFP and the rest is history in the making :drinker:

i've had a few "aha mini moments". back in november 2010 my husband had to take me to the er because i thought i was having a heart attack.. umm HELLO I WAS ONLY 22!!! i had an infection in the walls lining my heart. it was scary and i layed there on that bed and i cried and cried because i thought i was going to die. my weight was a huge contribution to the cause. did i let that stop me? NO. i attempted working out, i told my husband this is it, i'm going to change! i'd stick with it for a week, i'd be doing great and then all of a sudden i would stop. i really don't know why i'd stop. i have been battling yeast infections since my son was born. ugh.. can't believe i'm going to say this but, i have had a yeast infection every single month since my son was born.. 2 years ago. my weight is the number 1 reason i can't get rid of them. i just keep feeding the problem. my hair started to fall out and i just didn't/don't look healthy anymore. my husband is fit, he goes to the gym every single day and runs about 4-5 miles a week. i can't believe he's stuck it out with me for this long with all my terrible habits. i found MFP thursday june 2nd. i really don't even know how i found it. once i did i clicked on the success stories and made my way through until i felt an overwhelming feeling of "why can't this be me?!". i signed up and vowed not to tell a soul other than my husband. i'm sure people are tired of hearing me say i'm going to loose weight and i don't need that negativity.

friday morning i logged in for the first time. i have logged all my food since then. i haven't lied even when i made less than ideal choices, which is a big deal for me. i typically lie about what i eat so i don't feel so bad when people see i've gained. i have exercised every day since friday even when it's only been 20 minutes of yoga.

i know things could be worse.. i could have allowed myself to get much bigger than i am. i'm so glad that i found mfp, i'm vowing to make this a permanent change. once this 50 pounds is gone, it's going to stay gone forever. i need this. my husband and my kids deserve a healthy wife/mom!

Truly said enough is enough??

August 2, 2010.

I was at a waterpark for my fiance's birthday and after watching the other girls just hang out and feeling like the fattest one there I had a meltdown that night. I felt not good enough, fat, un confident, ugly...you name something negative I felt it. I cried..and cried..and cried.

I woke up the next morning with a new resolve to end the negative feelings and feeling sorry for myself and do something about how I felt. I haven't looked back.

Mine was on 12/27/2009 when I looked at the pictures from my sister's wedding! That same day I got on the scale and for the first time I saw the scale read 200+. That was a very sad and scary day for me.

That was in the past!!! I live a healthier and happier life!

Mine was late last year when I my dress arrived and I tried it on for the first time since the store and it was way too tight. I cried a little that day. It took me a few motnhs, but I finally found MFP and the weight started coming off. In my first dress fitting I cried again, but this time because the dress was too big. I was so happy and still am. It's nice to have jeans that fit comfortably again and make me feel sexy.

July 2010 . . . My brother married an Indian girl and it was really hard to find Indian clothes big enough to fit me. I managed to, though, and they looked pretty good -- until I looked at the pictures. The clothes were beautiful, bright and colorful, and I was making them ugly by being so fat.

I didn't do anything about it then because I had a boyfriend who really likes big girls. He finds larger women sexy and was kind of discouraging about me losing weight.

Then we broke up and I was so depressed that I was too immobilized to do anything.

But then we went and visited my brother and took pictures and I finally realized that I was huge and really needed to do something about it.

Sooooooo, here I am. Just joined in May 2011 and am feeling good. I've only lost 11 pounds but I know I have the capacity to lose much more and I am so looking forward to doing fun things to myself just because I want to, not because I'm trying to distract people from my weight. (Like dying my hair crazy colors and having pretty tattoos and interesting piercings, etc.)

Good luck to all of you!

Christmas holidays 2010. Standing in front of the fridge. Again. Planning to eat. Again. Why? Boredom. Not hunger...boredom.

I decided then and there I didn't want to be that person any more.

edit (duplicate)

My DAY wasn't really mine, but a coworkers. We were sitting in the lunch room eating an ice cream the company had provided. When she got up to get her 2nd one, I noticed that her legs from ankle to knee were absolutely BLACK. When she came back, I quietly asked her why. And she explained her Type 2 diabetes. And that she was getting the leg cut off. CUT OFF.

All I could think was that she could have just put the ice cream down and avoided all that. 2 months later she has passed away. I don't want any one in my family to say I had died or been mutilated because I just wouldn't get off my A**

Now that's really scary. Diabetes runs in my family, and I'm glad I started this before diabetes found me.

Mine was April 27, 2011. 189 pounds! Now at almost 6 weeks I'm at 174.6 and still going!