Time to find myself again!!!!

ams2221985 · December 2015

Hi my name is Amy. In the last five years I've lost the majority of my most immediate family this year my mom and my aunt within the same two months. My depression and anxiety shot through the roof. My significant other is the definition of opposites attract. He doesn't exactly understand my problems or how to help me deal. Needless to say, somewhere in all this mess......I have lost myself in my own mental and physical fall backs. Eating too much, social anxiety very badly (traumatized to the point, I've been diagnosed with PTSD!!! Crazy, huh? My mom was morbidly obese, and although it wasn't the initial cause of death, it did play a minor part. So, my significant other made a very heart worthy and concerning statement at dinner one night. "I don't know how to help a lot, I don't understand how this has changed you so much in such a short amount of time! I miss the old Amy, that cared about her well being and never feared anything. My Amy, that always smiles because what's the use in crying."
So, here I am trying to move on.... I want my old me back too. I need my old me back! So motivation would by all means be helpful!

HealthySideofLife · December 2015

I'm so sorry for everything that you've gone through, I wouldn't even know how to imagine that. I went through some hardships this past year myself, but am back. I'm mentally and emotionally ready to get my life back to where it was (lost 80 lbs on here before, but gained most of it back within a few years). You are more than welcome to add me as a friend, if you'd like.

Lola1675 · December 2015

I am truly sorry for everything you have dealt with this year. I wish you perseverance and strength. You will be back and this time stronger than ever! You do your thing and I'll be here to push you

I have been through a tough couple years and just recently started feeling like myself. Its a work in progress but every day I feel a bit closer. Feel free to add me as a friend.

clrug0912 · December 2015

So sorry for all that you have lost. You have definitely every right to take your time and grieve. Best of luck with your journey. I hope that with every step you take you find you are one step closer to the you, you want to be.

Rdsgoal16 · December 2015

That Amy is still in there and waiting to shine. Welcome aboard and best of luck!

Timshel_ · December 2015

ams2221985 wrote: »

I want my old me back too. I need my old me back! So motivation would by all means be helpful!

I will tell you, having been though this my experience is NOT to go back. Honestly you cannot.It will never be like it was, nor should it. That is the cycle of personal growth!

Mentally you have changed and grown beyond the person you were to this new person, which is an AMAZING blessing and opportunity to be the person you want. The next bit of time will be finding ways to understand all the changes in yourself and realize you are past them. Then you close that chapter in life and start writing the wonderful new story.

For me, it took over a year to come to that understanding and another year to gather some direction for who I really was and wanted to be. In all that, I found a better me, but much much different than I ever was.

Wishing you the best in your journey.

Valrotha · December 2015

First off, don't beat yourself up, Amy. You've been through a lot, and anyone would be hurting a tremendous amount from that. At the same time, you can't continue using things as an excuses. Take what time you need to mourn and never forget your loved ones, but if they really loved you then they wouldn't want you to be like this for a long period of time.

Keep them with you in your heart and imagine them saying to you, "I love you, Amy, and I don't want you to keep hurting yourself like this."

I hope this helps somewhat. I don't think it'll be easy, but I believe you can do it.

Time to find myself again!!!!

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