I have to leave due to personal issues, please read

Hi everyone, I didn't know where else to put this so here it is.

I don't know if anyone remembers (probably won't), I posted an upset message because I ate a piece of chocolate a few months ago. I think everyone thought this was pretty silly and excessive, but I really was consumed by guilt and upset.

I'm 54kg and 5'6". I'm on the low end of being a healthy weight. I'm still eating between 1000 and 1300 calories a day. I weigh all my food and count every single calorie. If I go over 1300 I feel very guilty and angry with myself, and if I hit 1800-2000 on a "binge day", I cry.

My mum was concerned about my attitude towards food so I was referred to a dietician, who I had my first appointment with yesterday. She told me that I wasn't eating enough, to put it bluntly. I'm showing signs of malnutrition - bleeding gums, hair breaking off, fingernails splitting, tiredness, dizziness, etc. She thinks my attitude towards food is unhealthy and that my goal weight of 8 stone is also not a healthy goal. She believes that if I continue with the same disordered eating patterns it could develop into a full-blown eating disorder - probably anorexia or EDNOS.

Like I said, the first step is to increase my daily intake to 1500 calories a day. This will be hard, but I'm willing to try. The next step will be to stop weighing and documenting my food. The dietician believes that I should gradually "wean myself off" documenting my food and calories, ie. stop using MyFitnessPal. I won't be disappearing straight away, I might weaken one day and feel the need to document everything. But gradually I'm going to have to leave, for my own health to be honest.

I don't want to sound alarmist and I'm not blaming this site. I think MyFitnessPal is brilliant, I've recommended it to friends and have found it so useful to lose weight. But I think I've had an unhealthy obsession with food and weight for a while and if I continue weighing food, calorie counting, etc, it could go too far and become dangerous.

I'm sorry its ended out like this, its been quite difficult for me to understand my obsession with food for a while and the negative feelings associated with eating have been bringing me down a lot. I wish everyone the best in their weight loss, congratulations for doing this the healthy way and working hard. Stay healthy and happy. I'm really proud of everyone who is staying dedicated to their weight loss and wish you guys luck. I'm sorry to leave, but its the best thing for my disordered eating patterns I think.