Hi there! My name is Theresia, and I am looking to reach out and make some friends on MFP:) I have struggled with my weight since I was a toddler. My earliest memory is another child calling me fat on the playground when I was only 4 years old. I can remember that memory as if it were yesterday. I was shocked as a child and had no idea I looked different from anyone else. From then forward i had low self esteem, gaining weight at a rapid rate. By the time I was 13 I weighed 250 pounds. When I stepped on the scale for the first time I was horrified. When I was 14 I joined weight watchers and lost around 100 pounds over the course of two years. After many life events (as we all have haha) I developed an eating disorder. I began with anorexia, which turned in to a very heavy painful life of bulimia. I suffered from anorexia and bulimia for 3 years. I found myself hiding away from the world and was in denial of how sick I truly was. I began using alcohol to number the pain of the disease and soon found myself dependant on different mind altering substances to endure day to day life. After a year of counciling with a nutritionist/councilor, a therapist, and the help of my family I was given the gift of recovery. I am also a recovering addict (I have five months clean and sober). In my new found recovery, I am able to focus my attention on the beauty around me and not the negative. Every day is a new day to decide i am going to love myself and nourish my body. I excerise so that I can feel the happy hormones. I eat well (most of the time) so I can feel good about what I put in my body for fuel. I am not perfect. But I am making progress
I am sorry this is so long, but if you are looking for a support buddy or just want to talk I would love love love to be friends on here! Thank you for reading, and please shoot a friend request
