Looking for Friends Please

Hi, I'm about 120 lbs overweight (266 lbs and 5'6") and am 37 years old. This will be my fourth time on MFP. I never seem to stick to it, or anything else for that matter. I was scheduled to get a gastric sleeve done but after seeing my primary Doctor, decided not to and canceled it. It's all in my head, not the stomach. (She says) and she's absolutely right!!! So, I'm working out about 4-5 times a week now but I just can't seem to stick to a healthier diet. I really would love some friends here so we can encourage and motivate one another. I am journaling my foods but I realized without being a bit more in depth with how much or how little I've been eating, I won't be making much of a dent even with all the exercising. So I came back to MFP to see what I'm REALLY eating. I'm praying this is it! Please feel free to add me. Let's help each other out.