Not caring anymore, need advice.

Have you recently started birth control?

Definitely speak to a professional since you have a history of disordered eating. And talk with your doctor about your anti-depressant. If it's not working, you need to switch it, even if it's the 80th time. The last thing you need to have happen on your wedding day is to be depressed and have anxiety. Pretty sure that will not bode well...

Good luck!

Soundbodysoundmind wrote: »

Hi, I'm 21 years old and My wedding is in 2 weeks. I weighed myself this morning and I have gained 10-15 pounds within the past two months. I'm just starting to feel like I don't care. I also have depression, anxiety and binge eating disorder and I am just getting more depressed and self conscious. I'm hating myself more and I'm getting to the point that I want to punish myself by eating more because of my weight gain. I really need help or advice because I am at a loss.

You are stressed, that's all. Lots going on in your young life.

Couple things you can do (I suffer from depression and do these still):

First, realize that depression is nothing more than chemicals in your body being unbalanced and making your emotions give you the feelings you have. While the ultimate goal is to learn to control them, I know when I was in throws of some pretty bad depressed states I would start telling myself to "just float", which was a mantra to kind of detach my actions from my emotions. So no matter how I felt I made sure I was doing the good things I should be doing. When you start to consciously recognize that chemical imbalance in you, you start to gain control over it and have a solid footing to work through it. You can do this.

Exercise. It is the best medicine! The great thing is, even when you don't feel like exercising, make yourself do it because by the end you will feel better/accomplished. Your body will get the same benefit no matter if you feel great and excited to exercise, or if you make yourself go through the work and motions.

Try to moderate eating more times in a week than not. Don't make even more stress by thinking about your eating every minute of every day. That creates a negative mental spiral. Just moderate your intake as much as you can, and allow for a little leeway right now - say, eat within calories a few days but just worry about maintenance calories one or two days a week.

MORE POSITIVE TALK! The number one thing that makes you feel like a failure is you continually telling yourself you are a failure. Again, that creates a mental spiral of negative talk and it will drag you down even further if you let it.

Don't be afraid or feel less than what you are. You are AMAZING and you can work through it! The hardest battles will always be the ones you fight against yourself, but soon you realize that you know your enemy quite well and will always win.

All the best.

Try thinking of your emotions like they are a horse that you're riding. Like a horse, emotions can carry you forward and that's good but if they get out of control they take you places you don't want to go. Talk to your feelings and say 'Steady there. Calm down.' Find a calm place inside yourself and use that calm to manage those feelings without crushing them. Horses need rest and so do your feelings. Take time to listen to lovely music or meditate to soothe yourself. Give your feelings attention. Are you marrying a man who respects you? Do his family treat you caringly? Are your feelings telling you something you should listen to? Or are you stressed with wedding preparations? You need kindness and caring, not punishment, so please be patient and loving to yourself.