Anyone else dealing with depression while trying to lose weight?

@kcongel90 constant battle with this. I keep just putting one foot in front of the other. More bad than good, but I look to the success stories, motivation and support, and I also look up things/quotes on pinterest/self-esteem/self-help, etc. on the internet. It does help!!

I'm finding myself in that hopeless place too, after yet another weekend of failing to log or to even be remotely mindful of my choices. My husband reminds me that together we are making good changes, our dinners together have gotten less carb heavy and including more veggies. We buy less junk over all.

At times, I just can't get passed all this awfulness I have done to myself. How can I be to blame yet feel powerless at the same time? How can I be proud of 5lbs lost when I've gained 50? I followed my plan today and will all week, I'm sure, because I did it last week. But I just don't see how I can do this for life, every time I turn around (or at least every weekend) I undo all my hard work. It ends up feeling so fruitless, that all the math and all the steps and and small exercise I manage is just utterly useless in the face of how far I have to go. Even if I lose every ounce of fat I have put on myself, I won't be happy with myself or my body. I will still nitpick, maybe my clothes will fit but I will still dislike what I see. So it feels like, sure I can eat less perpetually and occasionally exercise but nothing will really change.

I'm going through a cycle of depression right now, I spiraled over the weekend. My husband is diagnosed with depression (on medication for it) and was there to help me through it. Looking back, I went through a similar bought 7 to 8 years ago when I'd lost 80 pounds. My depression makes me want to control everything (let's toss some OCD in there), especially what I eat which is *great* when losing weight, but makes me miserable while going through it. It makes me not want to eat and smoke too much. Whee.

But - for me - there seems to be a correlation between my depression and weight loss. I've been on this weight loss journey for over a year and have more weight to lose. However, I cannot keep going on like this. ::sighs:: Right now I'm focusing on the small things and talking to a counselor, perhaps getting myself on some meds. As with everything in life.. baby steps.

Hugs to those who are going through something similar. You are not alone.

Oh yeah. Absolutely. I didn't read through all of the replies, but I'm sure that you really do know that the "dream job" is not the solution. Only the daily slog, looking at each temptation and saying, "Not this time. Maybe later I'll drive through Burger King, but right now I'll pass it up." Not easy. Not always even possible. But then there's always the next temptation. (There may well always be a temptation.) As I hope all these replies indicate, none of us is alone with this.