Body image??

Even though you see a smaller person, 300lbs on any body frame isn't healthy (even if you are over 6'0). You want to live a long and happy life, right?

At my heaviest I was close to 200lbs. I'm 5'11. To me, my size 16 frame didn't look that big. I knew I was larger than most, but it was ok. Until that day when it wasn't. Within the last 4 years I've maintained a weight around 150-155 (size 6/8). And now I realize just how much the mirror lied and how much better I look and feel now.

I have to ask though, do you feel good at your current weight? Can you walk a few miles at a good pace without getting winded? Can you do a couple flights of stairs without having to stop? I couldn't. And that made me feel really awful.

Walking is amazing exercise! No need to do anything else...do as much as you can and as often as you can...being outside on fresh air will help you feel better too. No need to do any more of physical stuff to lose weight. Weight is lost in the kitchen after all. Put your stats into MFP, set desired weight loss. It will give you daily calories. Stick to it (weigh your food on kitchen scale for best results)... and have patience. Also talking to a psychologist might help as well.

witcherkar wrote: »

I'm starting a partial hospitalization program on monday so I'm hoping that will help... I think one of my other biggest problems is the only other time I've ever lasted on a diet and exercise was for 2 months in 2012. I was living with my sister and her and her family and stick and bones yet eat everything under the sun. I was embarrassed to eat in front of them so I basically only ate maybe 500 calories a day and I did my schooling at home while everyone was at work or school so in free time I rode my bike to the gym and worked out non stop for 4-5 hours straight. I lost 50-60 pounds in 2 months and was toned from adding strength training. Since I can't do that I have this black and white thinking that we'll if I can't do that I'm screwed. I hate myself.

You don't have to do that just follow your calorie deficit and the weight will come off.

I didn't see myself as fat either when I started. It was really more about the knee pain, not fitting in airline seats, that kind of thing. Oh, and my uncle dying young of a heart attack.

It's funny... if I stop tracking and let my weight creep back up to ~170 lbs, I feel way more fat than I did when I was 240lbs+. Even at 140 lbs, I didn't feel "thin." I guess I'm saying, find motivation besides how you "feel" you look. You may never "feel" like the size you really are, no matter what weight the scale says.

For depression, setting attainable goals and realizing you can accomplish them can help. Maybe set a goal to walk/run a 5K in the next 6 months. Then, the weight loss and exercise won't be about weight, but instead will be about that fitness goal. The weightloss will just be a byproduct.

Also, if you lost 50 lbs in 2 months (6+ lbs per week!) please understand moving forward that that is probably not the road to a healthy, long life filled with joy. Losing 1lb per week is a perfectly acceptable rate of loss for long-term health and mental well-being.

You need to find out why you are here and then you have your focus.

You did so much in 2 months you know it's possible and that's an amazing result. You can do it again and more.

Ask your doctor what is possible with for you and make your diet fit around your exercise capabilities.

witcherkar wrote: »

So I weigh around 300 pounds. But when I look in the mirror, I feel so much thinner. I only know I'm far because scales, doctors, and strangers hurtful words..most people see themselves as bigger. I see smaller so I lack motivation. What do I do?

I get what you are saying. Much like those that have been fat all their life sometimes see a fat person in the mirror after losing weight, I saw a thin person in the mirror because I was thin for most of my life.

Pictures don't hide anything though. If you can't believe the scales, doctors, strangers and your clothing size, pictures might do the trick.

Good luck to you, be sure you spill out all of these feelings to your counselor. Start with small changes with food as well as your focus on life in general. Find a hobby to fill your time, I enjoy coloring. Find some indoor walking videos on YouTube, even for 10 to 15 minutes a day will benefit you. I started MFP back in February but didn't really use it until May. It has helped me so much. I have never done the calorie counting route before, but it is the easiest plan ever! I used to be a big WW fan, but I like this much better and it's free! If I want to go out with my husband and have Olive Garden, I do, I just fit it into my calories for the day! It has showed me just how much I was actually eating in a days time! I kicked it into gear in May because I am having my knees replaced in September and October and have to meet a weight guideline fir insurance to pay. I have about 5 more pounds to meet that goal. But I plan to keep on going! I can't exercise a bunch due to the current knee pain I have, but I try to do small walks a few times a week. Feel free to friend me if you want. God Bless.

It's great that you don't have any body image issues, but at 300lbs your health is at risk. So regardless of you being comfortable with who you are, you need to think about the future and getting to a healthier weight or you will have health problems.