How to crawl out of the hole?

vborn
vborn Posts: 3 Member
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So, here I sit. Pledging to lose the weight for the millionth time... Desperate for strength and stamina to get through one day at a time.
I just had my 49 th birthday. I am THANKFUL. I am BLESSED.
I am OBESE.
I have talked to God daily about me funky moods and my inability to get and stay motivated. He still loves me, this I know. But, in this instant gratification mindset I'm bombarded daily with.. TV, FB, ads, I am STRUGGLING to begin. Again.
My blessings are MANY. A WONDERFUL, LOVING, GENEROUS husband, wonderful children, and a cat that thinks "couch potato" lifestyle is just groovy. And yet, depression, self loathing, insomnia, fatigue, impatience are all the gifts that I am able to give back. NOT FAIR. And certainly not deserved by my family or my cat.
Tonight, I found my shovel. I threw my first pile of dirt out of the hole... I walked, I ate healthy today.
I LOVE MY FAMILY
I LOVE GOD
THANKS, goodnight

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  • mishii28
    mishii28 Posts: 30 Member
    Great job! I hope you can keep digging and find the gift you know you can be to you loved ones :smile:
  • vborn
    vborn Posts: 3 Member
    Thank you
  • DetroitDarin
    DetroitDarin Posts: 955 Member
    booya!
  • MsAmandaNJ
    MsAmandaNJ Posts: 1,248 Member
    All you can do is your best one day at a time. If you slip up, there's always another day to dig some more. You CAN do this!
  • AnabolicMind2011
    AnabolicMind2011 Posts: 211 Member
    Good job! You can do this
  • Just_J_Now
    Just_J_Now Posts: 9,551 Member
    vborn wrote: »
    So, here I sit. Pledging to lose the weight for the millionth time... Desperate for strength and stamina to get through one day at a time.
    I just had my 49 th birthday. I am THANKFUL. I am BLESSED.
    I am OBESE.
    I have talked to God daily about me funky moods and my inability to get and stay motivated. He still loves me, this I know. But, in this instant gratification mindset I'm bombarded daily with.. TV, FB, ads, I am STRUGGLING to begin. Again.
    My blessings are MANY. A WONDERFUL, LOVING, GENEROUS husband, wonderful children, and a cat that thinks "couch potato" lifestyle is just groovy. And yet, depression, self loathing, insomnia, fatigue, impatience are all the gifts that I am able to give back. NOT FAIR. And certainly not deserved by my family or my cat.
    Tonight, I found my shovel. I threw my first pile of dirt out of the hole... I walked, I ate healthy today.
    I LOVE MY FAMILY
    I LOVE GOD
    THANKS, goodnight

    Good for you. That's a good mindset. By the way, you don't look obese at all.
  • Icheatonmywife
    Icheatonmywife Posts: 132 Member
    One day at a time, down to one meal at a time, your stronger then you give yourself credit for, put your mind to it, and dont let anything get in your way.

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