200+ Fryin' the Fat

Nah, Mr. New has dropped off the planet. I know he had a lot going on between a death in the family and then visiting home for the 4th and stuff. We texted a bit when he got back into town for a day or two then he just stopped texting me. Given, I was sick of always initiating so I stopped as well, but I did text him last night telling him that I'm the type of girl that prefers to be told if interest has been lost so I don't waste my time wondering. No reply. I guess that answers that. :ohwell: Disappointing, but oh well.

I'm bounced up a bit in weight. For some reason, even though I was encouraged that as bad as I've been I haven't gained *that* much, I still seem to self-sabotage. I know what I SHOULD do, but if I make even one little mistake during the day, I develop this mentality that tells me "oh well, you already screwed up so what difference will it make if I continue like this all day?" Needless to say, this way of thinking has led to some very poor eating habits including fast food, enormous portions, bad choices in general... *sigh* How do you get rid of those negative thoughts? So far I seem to be failing at coming up with ideas to banish them...

Otherwise things are going ok. I've been mildly sucked back into the never ending cycle with the ex, but I seem to have more control this time around which I think is a good thing. Eventually I'll find someone so much better that I'll be able to cut that off completely... I hope.

Anyways, I'm gonna pass on weigh-in this week. I think I passed last week by default. :embarassed: I suppose I can just own up to it, and I'm at 220 again, which is up 5 lbs since my last weigh in a few weeks ago. Ugh. Where'd all my motivation go??? Anyone have some to lend me?

oye.


(That's all I can manage for today. Details to follow tomorrow.)

Weigh-in... 237.2 lbs

Kendal - Boo on your friend moving away. Yay for the shirt that is too big and the new lowest weight in a decade! As for the house, I'm not sure that sucks really covers the situation. I hope that your credit score doesn't take too much of a dive.

Amy - I'm glad to hear you had a good time in Italy, can't wait to see pics!

Karen - I'm sorry to hear about the scale going up. Have you been getting adequate sleep? I know you've had a busy schedule this week and I know lack of sleep negatively effects my weight loss. Way to go on the shirt fitting! The family run sounds like fun.

Hailie - That sucks and just doesn't make logical sense about having to take the MCA test. Hopefully, the state will get started back up soon and you can get this all taken care of without having to stick around for another year. I hope things calm down for you.

Nava - I'm glad to hear the surgery went well. Hopefully, the pain won't stick around for too long.

Kerry - Sounds like a fun filled weekend! I'm still impressed with your workout commitment. I wish some of it would rub off on me.

Lacey - I'm sorry to hear about your dog getting out. Neighbors really suck sometimes. Hopefully, he'll come home or you'll find him soon.

Victoria - Happy Belated Birthday!

Sarah (WnT) - Way to go on extending your run. It definitely feels good when you are able to surpass your planned workout. I LOVE your 4 yo.

Sarah (thes) - Haha I love that you brought your scale with you. Way to go on the loss, even if it does seem unexpected. I hope you have a great vacation!

Annette - I'm sorry to hear about the virus, but at least you know what it is. I hope you recover soon.

Pam - I keep meaning to find out when our local Farmer's Market is open. I hope you were able to get some good stuff.

Tammy - Feel free to stick with us and just weigh-in when you feel comfortable, or not at all. Each of us have to take this journey in our own way. What works for one won't for another. We all have the same goal of getting healthy, the scale does not dictate your level of health. Nor is your success dependent on the scale. You've already done an amazing job losing weight so you are doing something right. Just continue to do what works and feel free to let those things go that do not.

Crystal - Sorry to hear about Mr. New. I know it is rough being single, but you deserve someone who loves you and will treat you well. I like to think that I'm proof that that special someone will come into your life when you least expect it. As for the negative thoughts and stopping them, I've been in therapy for numerous years and am finally getting to a point where they do not overwhelm me. I wish I had an easy answer, but there is usually something more complex going on behind those negative messages. However, I have the same slippery slope problem when I eat something I shouldn't have. A few things that seem to help me... I try to recall how I felt the last time I ate whatever I'm craving, it usually wasn't a good feeling, i.e. upset stomach, bloating, lower GI cramps. I also try to think about how long I will have to be on the elliptical or in Zumba class to burn off the calories. I try to remember all of the heart disease/heart attacks/diabetes on both sides of my family and how I want to life a long healthy life, that won't happen if I eat the crap. Since I've joined this group of lovely ladies, I've begun posting when I've had a bad food day and/or I tell my wife what I've done. Telling someone tends to keep me more accountable to myself as it relieves me of the guilt of thinking I'm sneaking food and these people want me to succeed and I do not want to disappoint, makes me want to do better then next day. I hope this is helpful.

Keisha - Welcome! We are always taking new people. I think we only have about 3 more weeks left in this challenge, but feel free to let us now what some of your goals are. This ladies are great! This is my second challenge with them and already they have made a positive difference on my outlook regarding my weight loss.


Check-in for Friday... 2609 burned / 1155 consumed / 1454 deficit - Exercise - Strength training and 75 min of water walking/jogging. Worked out with plans to eat at Texas Roadhouse and then plans got canceled and I caught up on sleep instead of eating.

Check-in for Saturday... 2203 burned / 1589 consumed / 614 deficit - No exercise.

The wife and I went to the gym Friday morning after work, because we had plans to eat at Texas Roadhouse that evening. We ended up in the pool for almost 2 hours and we got burned. BAD! She can't even stand to have a t-shirt on and I'm thinking strength training when I get off work may not happen. I even put sunblock on! :grumble:

Other than trying to recover from sunburns, not much is going on. Work sucks, but that's not new. I seriously think my boss has had another stroke as her behavior has changed in the last couple weeks and she's not comprehending things when my co-workers and I try to explain stuff to her. She had a small stroke early last year and only went to the ER because she was having symptoms while at work and one of my co-workers called her boss and she was forced to go upstairs. (I work in a hospital.) She's now threatening to write people for really stupid stuff like taping a piece of paper to our schedule sheet so it wouldn't fall out of the binder due to use. She considered it defacing/altering the schedule?! The wife and I are tired of the BS we both have to put up with here and are strongly considering job changes. We'll see.

Small NSV though, I was helping my mom move furniture this evening and I was able to squeeze through the stairwell with the couch in it. Six short months ago I would NOT have been able to fit. Woohoo for taking up less space!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY VICTORIA! :drinker: :drinker: I hope it was an amazing day for an amazing woman!

Besides that, I didn't run yesterday, but I did today. 3 miles in 85 degree weather at 10 in the morning? Eek. My average heart rate while running was 180. yeah. HOT. But I did it.

Yesterday I played baseball and swam. And sat by a campfire. Because apparently, that's what I do in the summertime.

That's all for now!

Sarah(WnT) You OK girl? Praying all OK. Let us know when you can!

Amy-welcome home? LOL! Glad you had fun, I'll check out FB pics here in a bit. Did see the new profile pic...purty you! )

Katie-hope job BS gets better soon. I have a boss like that...hers is a nerve that has a benign tumor pressing on it, & the pain meds she has to take make her loopy, so she f***s stuff up, then if she tries to not take it, she's a raging biznatch! *sigh* I feel your pain! I'd send a hug, but with a sunburn...ouch! Aloe vera spray is awesome stuff..no touching to apply!! Yay for NSV!! Woot!!

Tammy-the challenge is good motivation, but what we're all about is support, so the actual weight itself...blah! Who cares? We'll back you up however you need us! *hugs*

Sarah(thes) yay for loss & awesome to take scale on vacay! Wow!

Crystal-*hugs* and hope all straightens itself out. Gotta agree with Lacey a bit, counseling can be a good thing. My employer offers free counseling sessions to us if we need them. Having that person to bounce ideas off of can give a whole different perspective, as they're there to listen to YOU & help YOU!

Keisha-welcome & jump right on in there! Don't worry about "too late" we always go straight onto another challenge right away! LOL! Tell us more about you!! As you can see, we hold nothing back!

Annette-feel better soon! And I'm w/Lacey, we'll find you, no doubt!!

Lacey-I'm agreeing with you a lot today! LOL! And neighbors can take a flying leap! Blah! Hope your dog comes home! Yay for NSV!!

And...what a week! I burned 4210 calories all week! I made my challenge goal on my other thread! (3500). My team is behind right now though...and I may look better in my swimsuit than I used to, but I'm wanting to kick the people that didn't make it! Ack!
Mellie's hiney just won't get better. She screams everytime she even sees me get a diaper out to change her. *sigh* I was even crying with her today & she was saying "Daddy, Mommy's crying" but that didn't stop her from kicking me or running to her Daddy when I was done. To make it worse, she keeps going more than once an hour most of the day. She wakes up with a dirty diaper. Breaks my heart.
And we had the $$ in the bank from the F-I-L for the house. Well, since we didn't get the house, the $$ is still in the bank...guess what? He wants us to start payments!! SO I now have DOUBLED what I have to come up with each month. And my hubby seems to think it's OK, when for the past month, we've not made it from once check to the next w/out running out of $$. I wanna know what hole he's going to pull it out of! And he tells me we'll be fine, don't worry. Normally, I'd say sure...but right now I want to tell him to go F*** himself. And I don't drop that word often. But instead, he asks me what's wrong & I storm out of the room & say "nothing" And he goes to sleep.
On a positive note...I finished my 2K yesterday...my 9yr old wimped out on me though, cutting corners & probably slowed me down! My 7 yr old was 4 minutes ahead of me! And my mom almost overdid it trying to keep closer to him. I was pushing Mellie though. I think I'd have done better, but I had this pain start in my foot, kinda in the back part of the arch, up into my ankle. I think I need new shoes. We did find out that the college the event was at has a fitness trail with stations you can stop & do exercises & stretches at. The boys thought it was fun, so I may have to bring them back a lot to do something fun. Esp as it's right by my mom's house. Well, VBS graduation is in 2 hours, so I'd better eat somehting & get ready to dance with the kids again! TTYL!!

Karen - can you give all the money back to your FIL until you buy a house? I mean why would you just want have that money wither away making payments on something you aren't living in. Grr. I would be pissed at the hubby too. Sheesh. Have you tried to corn starch on Mellie's bum yet? Sorry I keep pushing it, but it was really quite amazing how fast it worked on Gracie and she had blisters at one point that wouldn't go away. It also takes the sting out.

Amy - I am going to do round two when I get back from Europe. So Around October 1st I think. This round will essentially be P120x for me lol.

I am bored already. I have no plans today and kind of want to go into town and try clothes on at Macys but I know just because I am working out doing P90X now is not the right time to try on clothes. For one I know I've not gone down in size just yet and for two it would probably be the one time I'd find The Perfect thing that I don't have money for. I need to wait until early September when I am needing to buy stuff for my trip. So for now, once I get done working out and out of the shower, I will try a few things on in my closet and see what thing fit like now. I've got a skirt that was tight and a dress I couldn't even get on, so those will be good things to try on.

I don't know anyone's name so forgive me for having to use your display name. Thank you Megruder, Anvy0530 (Baby weight is horrible lol..never has my stomach looked so ugh), Laceylala, and Yocum1219!!! It is nice to come in new and feel welcome right away!

Basically I have always been a bigger girl (voluptuous as I would like to call it lol). I am not quite sure how I went from being a skinny kid to not being skinny, but it seemed to have happened over night. I have always struggled. I did crash diets and they were awesome at first then of course it all comes back on and then some. The first time I was able to lose weight and keep it off was when I worked out and ate what I wanted, but in moderation. I kind of went on a vacation from working out after I went from 256lbs to 190lbs. I had never been that small and I was pleased with being out of the 200s (as anyone would be lol). Then a couple of years later I joined Weight Watchers and realized I had gotten back up to 211lbs (which given the length of time and me not working out I was kind of expecting it). I lost 17lbs with Weight Watchers and got to 194lbs. I decided to come back to my good friend, working out and got down to 175lbs (which I am bigger framed so I felt really good at that size. I wore size 8). Then I got pregnant....oh the wonders of pregnancy lol. I thought I wasn't going to gain much at all during pregnancy. By the end of the second trimester I was like 190lbs. Then 3rd trimester came and I just kept packing on weight. I had to go to the hospital so many times cause I gained like 10lbs at a time in a week. They thought I had preeclampsia because of my rapid gain. It wasn't tho because I didn't have the high blood pressure or protein in my urine...It is still kind of a mystery how I did that lol. I ended up weighing 270 the day I went into labor. I went down to 225 a couple of months after he was born because I was just so tired and wore out from lack of sleep that I rarely ate. Which I think messed up my metabolism so when I actually started eating again my body was like finally...saving half of this meal for later and bam 20lbs gained lol.
I just want to have that feeling again about myself that I did when I got to 175 (smallest I have ever been by the way). Then when I meet that goal I want to take it a little further and actually be thin. I have always wanted to have someone say something to me like "oh we can definitely squeeze Keisha in cause she is skinny" lol.
So that is my story and my goals are just to lose weight and do it the right way so it doesn't just pack right back on in a year. I don't want a bandaid to fix my booboo and then take it off once its healed. I want something for the long haul. I want this to be me for the rest of my life.

Someone please crack the whip on me. I am starting to slip on my goals. Urgh.

Thanks, guys. I'm doing better today. TOM is killin' me this month and all the thoughts that come with being at home with two littles under the age of 5 started to get at me. I *almost* binged yesterday. Like, I had to physically remove my body from the house because I was going to eat it. The whole thing. The whole damn house.

Check in for Sunday: I did Day 1 of Level 3 on the 30DS...That means I've listened to Jillian Michaels for 21 days straight. I also went for, what felt like a super long run, but was only 2.25 miles. The difference was the hills were tremendous.

NSV: my mom told me she noticed a big difference in my body today. She is my biggest champion, but she won't lie to me. My dad and sister noticed too. That felt great. Truly great.

I need to go find something friendly to eat since I am only at 750 cals for the day so far. so, I'm off and I'll reply to y'all in the mornin'!!

4yo quote of the day: "So, if chicken is from chickens and beef is from cow's and bacon is from pigs....Mom, I have *NEVER* see a "Meat" before. What do they look like?" *sigh* I love that kid.

i've stayed the same this week, which is gutting cos i've worked really hard and been good, but i'm glad as when i weighed in on weds i'd put 2llbs on!