Sooooo pissed, but ok :)

Was I pissed, upset, sad? Yep. The reasons why arent important, thats not the important part of this story *Cue the feel sorry for myself music* This would also be my excuse to eat any and all crap I could get my hands and mouth on. Am I an emotional eater? UMMMMM, yeah. Anyway, I was upset and on my way to the store to get a few things. A prescription, some healthy cereal, low- fat salad dressing, etc. So I get my carriage ( or cart or buggy depending where you live) and go about getting my stuff. Of course I hone in on the freshly baked Italian bread..OMG..I LOVE bread. I NEED bread..I'm upset after all. I need the whole loaf all for me because it will make me feel better..soooo much better. I go over and pick up a loaf, lift it to my face and inhale..mmmmmmmmm. Bread. Crusty on the outside, soft in the middle bread. I put it in my cart and walk away...and walk back..and away..and back. Deep breath...another one. people look at me. I"M FIGHTING AN URGE PEOPLE..GO AWAY..THERE IS NOTHING TO SEE HERE!!!!! With another longing look I put it back and steer my cart past the bread to the cake, and muffins, and cream puffs..CREAM PUFFS PEOPLE..ughhhhh. The cookies, and donuts..Yeah...I know I'm torturing myself..*sigh* Did I resist because I NEED to be healthy and not dead?Partly. Because I cant live like this anymore, with food holding this power over me? Partly. Because the shame and guilt of scarfing down an entire loaf of bread in the car on the way home and trying to pretend it didnt happen and that I was ok was just too freakin much to bear. That too. Because MFP and all my friends here make me feel accountable and they encourage me every day and I didnt want to have to tell them I failed..yep, that too. Was I still upset? Heck yeah!!! But I felt it, breathed through it, thought it all out, how I would feel if I gave in and also how I would feel if I didnt...Score one for me!! Every day I feel stronger. Thanks my friends for your part in my victory xoxoxoxo