Binge Eating and Drinking

kschwab0203 · October 2016

Hello! This is not my first time using My Fitness Pal, I used this several years ago and found it to be very good at helping me to be accountable and really opening my eyes to what I was doing so I thought I'd give it another go.

Just a little back story... After having my third child in 2008, I weighed in at around 220 lbs...I'm 5"3 (NOT GOOD!!!). When my son was a couple of month old I began taking Adipex which really helped jump start my weight loss. I took it for about a year, maybe less, and was able to lose about 50 lbs. After I got off the Adipex, I began taking Adderall. It definitely helped to curb my appetite, but to be honest by that point I had changed my eating habits and exercise routine so much just from taking the Adipex that I'm not sure the Adderall helped me to lose the additional weight. I used this app along with exercising regularly and managed to lose and additional 15 lbs. I was able to maintain my weight for several years.

Fast forward to 2013, I get a divorce...I stop taking the Adderall. I have more free time on my hands not having my kids all the time and this whole word of being social and drinking and going to dinner was suddenly upon me. Now, three years later, I have found a wonderful man who loves me, but also loves to eat and drink....and still looks amazing ( NOT FAIR!!).

Prior to this, I drank alcohol maybe 1x per week or even every other weekend. Over the last few years, it's become something we do regularly...3 times a week. The late night eating that comes a long with the drinking plus the drinking it self has just ruined me. I also find myself binge eating...even hiding it from my partner...which just makes me feel worse. I have managed to about 25 lbs in 3 years. I never thought that I would ever let myself of course like this. It's shameful to be honest.

I go through these emotions of feeling like I'm ready to lose the weight, I'm sick and tired of feeling this way. Then I go off the rails on a eating binge...chips and dip, taquitos, pizza rolls, anything that will satisfy me a the moment. When it's all over and I"m stuffed...I feel gross, I loathe myself, and feel some weird way like I've betrayed my partner because he has no idea I'm doing this. It's is shameful.

So, I am here to get my act together! Any helpful advice or tip are more than welcome! Ready to do this!

yogaski83 · October 2016

Hey there - I know that this probably isn't the most healthy advice, but I would say if your planning on not changing your late nights, then it might likely be beneficial (for weight loss) to get back on the Adipex.

I have similar issues with drinking and overeating. The things that I've found helpful are getting enough calories throughout the day to prevent a binge; and seriously cutting back on alcohol. For me, staying up late and drinking is a recipe for a blown diet plan. Aderall really helped me lose weight, but had to get off it since I was using it to stay up late while not eating. It made me very anxious though so I ultimately had to stop taking it.

I have an extremely slow metabolism - and the aderall seemed to helped speed this up. But since I had to stop taking it, I now use my workouts to boost my energy and metabolism.

This weekend however was a disaster, but I'm learning to be ok with a disaster once in a while. My binges used to be composed of over 2K calories per binge, but now it's down to about 2k in the entire "binge" day. I think it's a work in progress; not every day is going to be perfect but if you find a manageable eating and workout plan this will help prevent a binge.

I think you should talk to your partner about this - I opened up to my husband on my eating disorders and found his advice and his continued support to be incredibly helpful.

Good luck. I know how much it sucks, but just take it day by day. Binge eating is a nasty, rough, habit that needs to be broken, but it won't happen overnight. I'm right there with you on this, and I'm hopeful that one day I will be able to overcome this behavior.

kschwab0203 · October 2016

I tried the Adipex again about 2 years ago. It made me extremely anxious. I am not sure why it didn't really have the same affect on me the first time. Maybe it was because I was much more active as I was a stay at home mom with three small kids and always on the go as opposed to now where I have an office job and am mainly behind my desk. Not sure.

I'm not ready to talk to my boyfriend about this. I'm still just too ashamed. Maybe I'll get there one day.

Thanks for all the words of encouragement! It helps to know I'm not the only one feeling this way.

yogaski83 · October 2016

Yeah the Aderall made me feel very anxious too.

It's just so hard to stop a binge when it's happening b/c the feeling of "crap well I've blown it all so now I might as well keep going" comes along. I literally have stopped myself mid-binge and to get out of the house for a walk. I had to forgive myself for it and realize that not every day is going to be perfect.

My current issue is that i'm down to the last 10 lbs of weight loss I see the nasty binger rearing its ugly head as I've had to restrict my calories in order to lose half a pound a week.

Feel free to friend me

- I track all of my calories (even on binge days) as I think it's important for me to hold myself accountable for my behaviors.

I get it on not opening up to your man, that's your choice and whatever you choose to do is perfect. I just found it helpful to me, although it did take a while for me to be honest with him about it.

kschwab0203 · October 2016

YES! That feeling of "oh well f**k it!" once I have begun the binge is what just give me permission to keep going. Then comes the regret and the self loathing and just feeling 10 times worse than before I even started!

I used to have a real problem with binge eating when I was a kid. Not that it is anyone's fault, but my parents just kinda let me eat what I wanted and when I wanted. This is really the first time though, as an adult that I have had an issue with binge eating. Like, sitting at dinner with my boyfriend and being really mindful of how much I eat because I know he can see. Then wishing i could have just killed the whole plate. Or going into the kitchen after dinner to "clean the dishes" and gobbling up more food where he can't see me! It's crazy! I have never felt like this.

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