I keep yoyoing feeling really miserable anyone solve they're yoyoing ?

I just want to say it's really tough, especially when dealing with difficult things like you mention above. But you're so far from being alone. Many, many of us have dealt with yo yo dieting, and there are many people on here who have escaped from the cycle. I've not reached my goal weight, but I'm doing much better than previously. Here are the things I have learned:

- If you have things which are upsetting you and getting in your way, you need to tackle those. Stress eating and emotional eating are just symptoms, and you need to tackle the cause first. That might mean therapy (you mentioned CBT so you've started that process), it might mean tackling something in your circumstances that needs to be changed, it might mean setting strong boundaries with troublesome people, giving yourself time to grieve losses - take all these things seriously as the first step.

- if you are in a cycle of restricting your food (maybe you think of this as "being good") and then letting go and having large binges, you need to tackle this, and the first step is not to stop binging (you don't have much control over that) but to stop over-restricting and work on developing a healthy relationship with food, feeding yourself regularly and adequately and really giving your body what it needs in terms of calories and nutrients. I highly recommend the site Half Size Me for loads of great advice on tackling binging, and the podcast back catalogue of interviews with people who have struggled and overcome binging is an absolute treasure trove.

- Many people, myself included, find that totally cutting out foods or labelling foods as "good" or "bad" is completely counterproductive and encourages binging, as the "bad foods" end up in a pedestal and become irresistible.

- similarly, trying to "pay back" overeating with exercise is counterproductive. It's almost impossible to do, for a start (it's quite easy to eat a thousand calories but almost impossible to burn that off in a single workout) and more importantly, it feeds into the binge-restrict cycle and just compounds the whole problem. If you overeat, accept in and move on. This can be incredibly powerful.

- In general, attaching moral ideas and self-worth to your eating is unhealthy and makes it much harder to develop a good relationship with food. Binging does not make you bad or worthless, restricting does not make you good or admirable. Food is just food - nothing more, nothing less - and you are worth the effort of feeding yourself well and staying healthy.

I hope some of this helps you and I hope you really take on board that you are not alone with this, and that it is possible to overcome it and develop a healthy way of eating. You can do this!