no special arrangements needed...

Last saturday, my oldest son (and proud new daddy) invited the family to his home for a BBQ. He was making his 'secret recipe' ribs.

He asked me was there something special he needed to have ready for me (knowing i have been eating heathier and losing weight - see previous blogs entries for his reaction when he first saw me).

I assured him there was nothing special he needed to do to have food 'safe' for me..though i appreciated his consideration.

After the call ended, i thought about my answer to him... and could not help but smile at just how far i have come in 8 months. Because, there really was no need to make special arrangements to accommodate my eating whatsoever, and, i finally 'KNEW' it! I was no longer worried/concerned about how i would make his meal 'work' for me.

I 'get it' that, i am an intelligent adult and perfectly capable of CHOOSING how much to eat of whatever is being offered to me! 'I' am the one in control of whether something can fit into my eating plan choices or not..no fear whatsoever.

So on saturday my only thoughts were about being able to cuddle my granddaughter again *S*

To even further test my resolve, all he wanted me to bring along with me (when i asked what i could bring to help out) was HIS favourite homemade cookies (that are covered in a chocolately fudgey icing), and my mother's recipe for old fashioned soda biscuits... another huge (not low cal) family favourite.
So, saturday before we lest for the drive to his place, i spent the morning baking and icing cookies, and making his biscuits. Contrary to all past times when i have made both, i did not eat even one..not even a bite!

Once we arrived there, the aroma of the baby back ribs he was BBQing was SO delicious! He really has turned into a terrific cook since he has married and settled into family life *proud mum smile*.

When supper was served, i did indeed has 4 of those delicious meaty, well sauced ribs, and enjoyed every single mouthful! there was plain steamed broccoli available and i had a big heap of that, but there was also a delicious sourcream, bacon, cheese, double stuffed baked potato 1/2 as another accompaniement, and yes indeed, i had one of those too!

Wonder of wonders, he had even made home-made cannoli for dessert, and i had one of those as well.

Here's the amazing thing... it all tasted SO good!!!! And in the past i would have for sure had a second helping of everything (except the broccoli *L*), but.. i was perfectly satisfied! It all tasted SO wonderful, but JUST because it taste so good did NOT mean i needed to gorge myself with more. I took pleasure in the fact i was satisfied and not overstuffed *L* I thought i was likely over my calories etc as a result but i was fine with that too! No stress!

More time was spent after supper cuddling the baby, talking, laughing, just plain enjoying the time together.

Once it was time to leave, hubby drove home, leaving me free to whip out my smart phone and enter my meal into mfp *L* And lo and behold!!!! I was fine! in fact, i even had room for a snack still once we got home after the 1.5 hour drive!! WOW!

So there i was, happy, contented, happily full, relaxed, not stressed at all leading up to the meal, i was ready to choose from whatever there was and be fine with it *S*..and as it turned out, the amounts i chose were perfectly ok! I actually have learned something by accounting for every lil bit of food over the last 8 months..and i LOVE the freedom this new knowledge and awareness has given me!

i mean... don't i 'look' happy? *S*



ohhh and btw... the next day i had an email from ex hubby, and in the course of email he mentioned my weight loss (first time he'd seen me since this loss was night baby was born last week). His comment (as he knows i want to lose more yet to reach normal weight)?

'I must admit I am not sure where you are going to find anymore to lose'

*beaming* yup... was a terrific weekend *S*