I need help... Friends and motivation

Hey lovely ladies,
Ok so i was sz 10 when i got married over 10 yrs ago. I had the dancers body. Then i endured alot of abuse in my marriage and turned to food for comfort. I felt less about myself and lost my friends and family through the marriage and lost myself and my happiness and turned to depression. Over time i put on so much weight and was at a weight i had never been in my life. Finally i was free from him and started my life all over again and was in a such a good place i lost the 15 kilos i had put on and then some. Then i dated again and was in love with him and found he was a cheater aswell and then it was back to comfort food again as all my insecurities and my anxiety about never being good enough returned and i put on the weight again. So now, while im single again im finding no motivation to loose weight as i still am coping with hurt and may face reality ill always be single. Part of me wants to loose all the weight for myself for the happiness to return but now being 36 its not as easy. Im at a cross roads with how i view myself and partially think whats the point. Past week ive been walking, doing my squats etc and taken before pics of myself so when i loose the weight i can compare and visually see a difference. I need motivated ladies here to chat with and im thiniking about starting Myfitnesspal again. I still have my account i just need to start using it again. Anyone have any before and after photos they are willing to share and great stories to tell so i can turn this around and be happy again? I need help