Starting over... again

_mglo_
_mglo_ Posts: 31 Member
in Getting Started
Hi everyone :) thank you for being here to hear my story. MFP has helped me twice to lose weight successfully and I'm hoping third time's the charm for losing weight AND keeping it off!

I was at a fantastic weight at the beginning of 2013. Through a sequence of events, and a lot of emotional eating, I went from being 125 to 230 (Which is what I'm at now).

It's been two years now that I hate myself and loathe my body. I hate myself for having ruined being at a good weight. I let myself go sooo much and I despise myself. I think about being fat all day long. And I'm at a point where I don't want to just feel bad about myself anymore, but I want to actually do something to change it.

I'm turning 30 next week and I figure it's a great time for me to turn this around. I actually don't like going out because I don't want people to see me. I can't live the rest of my life like this!!!

Thank you so much for hearing me out. If my story relates to you please friend me. I need all the support I can get and will support you in your journey as well.
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  • Sunshine6909
    Sunshine6909 Posts: 108 Member
    Good on you for saying enough! I look forward to seeing your progress. :-)
  • datbrittish
    datbrittish Posts: 14 Member
    Wow we have very similar stories! I'm starting today!
  • tena1028
    tena1028 Posts: 80 Member
    Hi mglo. You have done it before so you know you can do it. I have lost close to 60 lbs in the past year. I have another 20 to go. I was like you, I didn't want to go out in public. I didn't want to risk running into someone who had not seen me since I gained the weight. Add me if you would like. I am on everyday.
  • dlkfox
    dlkfox Posts: 463 Member
    I totally get it!!!! Doing this again myself. I've sent you a friend request.
  • CathReese33
    CathReese33 Posts: 112 Member
    You can do this. Good luck xx
  • sarahlovesfood25
    sarahlovesfood25 Posts: 408 Member
    Ive sent u a friend request, good luck on ur journey u can do it :)
  • venuscaelestis
    venuscaelestis Posts: 27 Member
    We share a similar story! I'll add you, and anyone else who would like some support feel free to add me.
  • _mglo_
    _mglo_ Posts: 31 Member
    thelifeilove1 wrote: »
    I also have started this thing over on myfitnesspal three times. This time I started 3 days ago. I have 15 more pounds than you do to lose. Its a strange thing we allow this to go on so long we undo everything we accomplished. In fact, this yo-yo defines my life for some reason I can not comprehend. On one hand I want to be a normal size so desperately, and know very well what to do to accomplish it. On the other I have this imprint of all the foods I love to eat imprinted in my brain and can not seem to control the portions of to effect the desire for this normal weight. Over the years I have paid thousands of dollars for gymn memberships, yet rarely go. I wish you success, as I wish myself success, in this time breaking the code and learning at last to maintain our desired weight.

    I relate to this SO much!! It's like I know what I need to do to be happy, what to eat... but I just can't get myself to do it. I'm hoping if I push myself these first few days it'll get a bit easier as time goes on.
  • pizzafruit
    pizzafruit Posts: 318 Member
    I've survived cancer, it took me 1 day to stop smoking and have never gone back. I have gone from needing to lose a few pounds to being overweight, to being morbidly obese. I too know what it is I need to do and I know it doesn't happen quickly and that to me is overwhelming. I wake up every day telling myself that today is the day I start to make it happen. Today is the day....... I'm seeing the doctor on Monday.
  • Yvonne576
    Yvonne576 Posts: 1 Member
    I'm starting tomorrow also, we can all do it
  • beanz744
    beanz744 Posts: 221 Member
    l started my 3rd time from mar 1st/17. it was much easier this time so i guess the experience in the last 2 times helps n i m sure ur MFP experience will help u too. the only difference this time is that l wont be tossing MFP away after i get to my GW because that was the problem in the last 2 times. l will keep using it so i NEVER have to lose weight again

    JUST DO IT (u already know how)! GOOD LUCK!
  • Misskcm
    Misskcm Posts: 143 Member
    Hi! My highest weight was around 230 so I know how you're feeling right now. Got down to 190 and gain 20 more back. Now I'm down 30 pounds since March at 180.
    But like others have said if you have done it once before you can do it again!! Good luck!! You have got this!!
    ❤️
  • Sunshine6909
    Sunshine6909 Posts: 108 Member
    Welcome @Mom2Maika! Im on day 6, feel free to add me. :-)
  • Randyamc
    Randyamc Posts: 365 Member
    Wow, that really hit close to home. I'm starting fresh and plan on making it last long term this go round by making some fundamental changes in my daily routine. If anyone else wants an extra supporter, feel free to add me! Wishing everyone a good fight! ;)
  • macarty
    macarty Posts: 2 Member
    This is my first attempt at MFP and I walked in the gym today for the first time in 10 years. I need all the encouragement and accountability I can get. I have 60 lbs to lose. If anyone is looking for friends and encouragement feel free to send me a friend request.
  • dturpin2
    dturpin2 Posts: 2 Member
    Starting again with MFP! 5 years ago I lost 30 lbs...I was diligent and focused...man, I need that again! I hope everyone has a good day...we can do this!
  • Rockstar_JILL
    Rockstar_JILL Posts: 514 Member
    Sounds so very familiar! I have recently recovered from a broken ankle and am relosing some gained weight while I was injured and cooped up in my apartment for 2 months. I am currently working on a C210K program and have lost about 13 pounds since April. Feel free to add me if you are going be here regularly and interact often.
  • cajordan1960
    cajordan1960 Posts: 1 Member
    Hello all! Boy can I relate to some if not all these posts! Let's all do this! For me its 40lbs gained during the wonderful 50's!! It has gone on to long and it does start to affect every aspect of our lives! Being healthy is the #1 priority now as I approach 60! UGH!! LOL Would like to lose at least 10 by vacation time with my family!
  • HipHipAway
    HipHipAway Posts: 2 Member
    edited June 2017
    Hello! I can so very much relate! I lost 70 pounds over the course of a year using Weight Watchers and switched to calorie counting when their program was changed at the end of 2015. From there I was able to maintain, maybe lose a little more and then the weight started creeping up. I have now gained back 40 of those 70 pounds. Something's gotta give and I don't want it to be my pants any longer! I would love to have some friends along the way, so please feel free to add me. I'm sure we have plenty of insights to inspire each other. :)
  • stormimdow
    stormimdow Posts: 9 Member
    I am also continuously restarting. I am 43 and have thyroid issue. Now, don't get me wrong, I don't use it as an excuse. However, no matter how much I kayak, belly dance, hike, walk and bike ride, the scale did not budge! My body weight shifted around nicely. But the scale did not. I do understand inches vs. pounds. But, not seeing progress was very disheartening. In October, I stopped. There is not one reason. But, a combination of reasons. Stress Anxiety Tiredness Laziness. I have been clawing my way back to a good mindset. I miss me!
  • Valrotha
    Valrotha Posts: 294 Member
    edited June 2017
    I'm in the same boat as you, OP. Just started a calorie deficit and working out this week. Always happy to have more friends!
  • rosson
    rosson Posts: 29 Member
    My story is the same as yours. Maybe we can motivate one another. I look forward to seeing your progress. We can do it!
  • zoester766
    zoester766 Posts: 2 Member
    I can relate, I lost 40 pounds last year using this app. I was only 10 away from my goal weight and then I had a miscarriage and directly after that got pregnant again. Now I am 197(130 is my goal weight) I am trying hard to get motivated and loose some weight again. Why is it so hard.
  • Lancer97
    Lancer97 Posts: 39 Member
    This is my 2nd retry (3rd time total) .. I have 125lbs total to lose and 118 to go still. Feel free to add me if you like.
  • Sheil813
    Sheil813 Posts: 3 Member
    Ive been using MFP for 32 days in a row and haven't done very well - I am in an office with folks that are constantly eating chips and candy... I travel also so I have found it hard to stay away from sodium - this is my first time finding others who are in the same boat as I am !! Yay team - we can do this!!
  • heather4life4
    heather4life4 Posts: 37 Member
    Completely understand how you are feeling! But what a good choice you've made to get back here! Feel free to add me, this will be a great journey for you!

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