NSV: I wore a t-shirt today

I've lived in plain black, 3/4-length scoop-neck shirts almost exclusively for the past 10 years. I own 30 identical plain black, 3/4-length scoop-neck shirts. I rotate them, naturally, because I know the old vs. new and certain dye lots/years feel different from others.

I wore a t-shirt today. A somewhat tight, heather gray short-sleeved shirt with a printed graphic on it. Specifically this one https://www.teepublic.com/t-shirt/92613-have-you-tried-turning-it-off-and-on-again?

This is the most NSV ever but man, is it a big step for me. I was overweight all throughout Junior/High school but I wore printed t-shirts all the time, I didn't think anything of it. But, 10-odd years back I almost overnight became self-conscious about my bulges and unnecessary curves. I gather weight in my back and having these...rolls...hanging off my shoulder blades looked utterly grotesque. Today, I only saw slight bulges due to my crappy bra. I looked...trim. Kinda stylish. Cool, even.

I actually felt thin today. I LOOKED better. Even my shadow had a more defined silhouette. This is the first day I've actually FELT my nearly 30lb loss. My legs felt better swiping against each other. My elbows hit my stomach instead of my sides.

I'm so tired of black, black, black. I always leaned towards a gothy aesthetic but I miss the option of wearing colors, I miss having fun with my wardrobe. I'm never going to parade around in a bikini, that's just not me– but damn, I can at least wear something that doesn't bring Poe to mind every day of my life. I have a sleeveless pink lace dress that I've had hanging in the closet for 5+ years. I have 10lb to go before I'll feel comfortable wearing it, but wow, that's actually not that much.

I even only wore a half-slip under my clothes instead of my usual full one. I was a daring, wild woman today, I tell ya.

~VL