Hello to all from another "newbie" to the site!

Hello, my name is Connie. Basic info.: Happily married , one son, 22, tired of barely functioning and ready to live life to the fullest! I really have to do it this time, my hapiness, health and lifespan depend on it. My family and my doctor have been so supportive, but I know they can't do this for me. I have to do it. But I look forward to their support and all of my new - found buddies on MFP! My doctor actually suggested the site - glad he did - news to me. I am 42, never had any weight prob. until mid 20's , but since then I keep climbing to the point of not just uncomfortable, but miserable - froom 100lbs. to over 300. I keep saying "I'm trying", but i know I have to "do it" and stick with it. I 've had chronic back, leg, feet pain for years, but now my triglycerides are up slightly, and my sugar is still running a little high ( has been for several months now). I am having difficuly admitting I have diabetes. I have been an RN in a busy hospital for 21 years and have seen the effects of it. I've "let myself go" long enough - this is not who I am - I hardly recognize myself . I have been thinking to myself lately how I should be enjoying this phase of my life, our son is out of college, I work 3 alternating with 2 twelve hr. shifts/wk. . I don't have an excuse of "no time". Actually, I could go shopping, go to the spa, catch a movie, clean my house!, etc. and enjoy my days off if it wasn't for the fact that I would rather sleep and eat and be miserable. I really need to "get it together". Because while it's true it's very hard to do, I do have a lot of pain, and it's hard to get started when you stay exhausted,etc., etc., it's even harder to keep living like this. So I'm happy to be here because I look forward to my journey with all of you!