Burnin Thru Augus(Closed Group)

I have never been super skinny at my smallest I was a 6-8 and thats when I was 21 & met my husband.... I quickly gained 20 lbs when we started dating & then slowly gained another 30. I have 3 daughters ages 1, 2 & 3 & I have to admit I didn't gain alot of weight through out any of the pregnancies and am currently where I was when I got pregnant with baby #1 so I can't even try to use them a little bit... LOL all this baby fat is me.
That being said.... I don't want to be 186 lbs any more. I want to feel good about myself when I look in the mirror & I want to be an example to my daughters. No more complaining about being fat!!
SO I guess my big motivation is my 3 daughters & my husband, I want to be healthy so we can live a long life together.
Oh & I want to look hot for my husband when we go places

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Stephanie my work recently changed their health care policy as well... Another reason to get in shape for sure.

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The reason I want to lose weight is because I don't what I see when I look in the mirror. I feel skinnier than I actually am and it hurts to not see it that way. I have a 1, 2 and 3 year old too! (FUNNY MEG)!! and I gained A LOT of weight being pregnant during that time and haven't felt a need to lose it because, I too, have a man who likes bigger girls... BUT... I don't feel good about myself and that matters more than anything. The reason I continue to log in everyday on MFP because it is a support system! We all want to achieve the same goal and it's nice to be able to share our motivations, inspirations, and failures with others who understand. I am in it for the long run and I am really determined to live a healthier lifestyle for myself and my family. I want to bring HEALTHY BACK, lol!!!

LOL brining healthy back, i like that

Here's the skinny on my fat: I want to look and feel better.

now here's the fat on my skinny:

I've had a very low self esteem for a really long time. I'm very beautiful and inteligent and have an awesome body. though i feel average looking at best, constantly in a brain fog feeling like an idiot, and my clothes don't fit the way i think they should.

I've been in more than a few destructive relationships and two failed marriages. my first baby put on 60 lbs that i eventually lost, and the second one added 80, that took even longer to lose. all the while my self esteem was getting lower and lower.

My second marriage ended in february 2010, my awesome job ended in may2010 and shortly after i decided to surrender my life to the military. i let my boys step mother adopt them since i wasn't going to be able to care for them for the next three years. I got my weight down to 190 which was the lowest it's been since i was in middle school. I felt great and i was gaining self esteem by the ship load. then a month after i swore in to the national guard i found out i was pregnant and her father didn't(and still doesn't) beleive she was his. so hello again depression and another 40lbs.

then i met John. John says i'm wasting my intelligence by working minimum wage jobs and should look for something more to my level. that makes me feel good. John always says i look nice when i need him too, and that makes me feel good. He says that i'm beautiful when i least expect it and that makes me feel good too. the more he compliments me the more self esteem i get.

when i found out i was having a girl my perseption changed. I decided not to give her up for adoption and to get out of the military so i could raise her myself. that was probably the first sefless decision i've ever made in my entire life, and that made me feel good.

I'm sick of loathing myself and making excuses and being selfish. i deserve to be loved and to have loving relationships with people that value me. I never want my daughter to think it's okay to ignore your own needs. She heeds to know that it's good to love yourself. And part of loving yourself is taking care of yourself. i wouldn't let my kid get this depressed and this over weight because i love her, so i'm not going to let myself do it either.

i'm falling in love with myself and want to look hot for me it's just a great bonus that i get to look hot for my love, and set a great example for my baby love.

MFP has been a key to keeping myself accountable and this challenge has given me people that i relate to and can draw strength from. I joined the team challenge looking for motivation and totally got it

I'm a bit afraid. I need to look at the video one more time. Got 100 crunches in this morning and 10 oz of H2O already! I've only been up 30 minutes.

Alright team I finished our challenge for today before breakfast! It's not easy but you can do it. I think I'm one of the biggest on the team and if I can do it anyone can. It's not easy on large chests lol fyi. I had so much energy from those I continued exercising for 15 more minutes to keep the adrenaline going.

GO GO Go , I have faith in all of you!

Angel

ok, I did the cartoon--I am Bugs Bunny

As far as losing weight, I wasn't overweight until I started working at a desk in 1997- I gained about 30 lbs then....Then I just added a little a year for awhile and then in 2001, my mother died at 53 and I met my husband and got married. It was the happiest and worst year of my life. I am an emotional eater. I ate whatever I wanted whenever I wanted. If I was sad, I'd go buy a huge box of Godiva's and eat them in a day or two. My husband (also overweight) loves me like I am and would take me out to dinner all the time. We went out about 5 nights a week. Seriously! So, we started trying to have a baby and I found out I have all kinds of issues (one ovary, one fallopian tube that is blocked, PCOS) So, I was depressed.....I ate......then I started doing infertility treatments (hormones), IVF & more weight.....finally got pregnant (yay) 5 months in, I lost my little girl due to incompetent cervix...(another problem that nobody picked up on)...so I took a year off and ate myself silly....cried a lot and decided to get back on the horse (IVF) and try again, got pregnant, lost that one (it was early) and then FINALLY got pregnant with my daughter Rebecca and had her in March 2010. Needless to say, I am over the moon in love with her.

Now, i worry about being here for her. My mom left my life at such an early age, she had heart disease. I know I need to take care of myself. I don't want to miss Rebecca getting married and being a grandmother.

SO TMI but, I feels good to share sometimes.

Thanks for listening...

xoxo

8/3/11

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By the way, it was 100 degrees yesterday. Drinking all that water was no problemo, if it stays hot like this, I will end up drinking enough water for the whole BTA team lol.

SERIOUSLY!!!! What the EFFFF was that crap??? Who came up with UP and DOWNS, they need to be put in a box with like 1,000,000 fire ants, and some scorpions, a few rattle snakes, and an angry honey badger!

Mine are done and I think my liver shifted in my body.

SERIOUSLY!!!! What the EFFFF was that crap??? Who came up with UP and DOWNS, they need to be put in a box with like 1,000,000 fire ants, and some scorpions, a few rattle snakes, and an angry honey badger!

Mine are done and I think my liver shifted in my body.

ROTFL!

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So kids, I've been doing some spying and I'm hearing that there is something called a "Secret Challenge"....

So kids, I've been doing some spying and I'm hearing that there is something called a "Secret Challenge"....

:huh: what it be??