I've got 99 lbs and it ain't fun.

Hi! This is a huge step for me. Looking for friends to help motivate me. I've gained 80lbs (Need to lose approximate 100) and am not the outgoing woman I used to be. Was in a narcissistic, abusive relationship, so could use some non judgemental motivation. I'm trying the macro diet. I'm looking for a basic shopping list and simple recipes and a place I can feel safe to vent and lend an ear to those who need the same. Thanks you guys. I'm looking forward to finding a newer, better me!