Just got a horse. Time to stop this self-neglect.
I was much bigger. But a year ago I lost enough weight to horse ride. I was only allowed to ride because I still retained some skill from my past and didn't bounce on the horses' back. Well I'm super glad they let me as I've now got my own horse. She's healthy, fit, smart and kind. I feel alive and with purpose. To be her partner for the next decade and more I need to up my game. Because a horse can't lie and she won't show me pity.
I have always looked in MFP but kept telling myself I'd sign up tomorrow. Maybe 100x and more. Well now I've managed it as I'm fed up of being unfit. I want to be her equal and do her proud. And part of me finds it strange that the opinion of my horse matters more than anyone else's. I think I was, or am, that depressed.
Having friends would be amazing as I'm living with my obese mother who has absolutely no self-restraint in what she buys and cooks. I cannot altogether avoid it so I have to learn to make the right choice. How can I ask my horse to be so disciplined and well mannered when I can't even stop myself pigging out? It's just not right.
So here I am. Thank you.