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Bere1416
Bere1416 Posts: 6 Member
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At the beginning of January, I began to get desperate to lose weight any way I could. I stopped eating for a couple of weeks. I would have a cup of coffee in the morning and one at night, I needed the caffeine since I have two kids (3yr old and 1yr old), and only sometimes would I eat a very small amount at dinner. I was obsessed with the mirror. I would look at myself in the mirror several times a day and I would just see myself as really fat and that was reason enough for me not to eat. During all of that time I had gotten a headache that turned into a migraine that didn't go away for even a minute and lasted all month, so I could tell that it was affecting me a lot. I was also too weak to workout. I just recently started eating again, it is all healthy eating. My headache finally went away and I'm on my fourth day of a workout program. I started the program at a weight of 146. Yesterday I weighed 144.6, I just weighed myself an hour ago and I weigh 147 lbs! I started crying when I saw that number on the scale. It became really hard to convince myself that not eating is not gonna fix this. I'm really pushing myself with my workouts and I'm eating 100% healthy and drinking lots of water. I don't know what is wrong with me.

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  • JeromeBarry1
    JeromeBarry1 Posts: 10,182 Member
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    The only thing wrong with you is that you don't understand how to be patient and deliberate. Fortunately, you can learn both of those things.

    How tall are you?

    I don't know, but 147 could be lithe or pudgy, depending on how tall you are. How old are you? That doesn't much matter to weight, but if you're a minor you should be using this site.

    Don't laugh. I had a cousin with 2 kids and was still a minor.
  • JustSomeEm
    JustSomeEm Posts: 20,203 MFP Moderator
    edited February 2018
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    If you've just begun a work-out program, your body is likely holding onto water weight. Are you sore? If so, your body is holding onto some extra water as it heals those muscles and the soreness goes away. Even without soreness, weight fluctuates often and sometimes wildly. If the scale is going to affect you that much, maybe you shouldn't be using it more often that once every week or two. Weight-loss isn't linear - there are going to be ups and downs along the way. As long as you're eating right and being honest with yourself, you ARE going to lose the weight. The trick is to not let small bumps in the road freak you out and cause you to give up.
  • Bere1416
    Bere1416 Posts: 6 Member
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    Everybody else, thank you so much for your replies, I'm trying really hard to fix my way of thinking. Your comments are really helpful.
  • Bere1416
    Bere1416 Posts: 6 Member
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    @shadow2soul thank you so much! I had no idea that there could be other reasons to why such a huge change in my scale. And thank you for telling me that I need to be healthy for my kids in a way that doesn't hurt me. That other person really broke me like you have no idea. I can't stop crying, but every other person did help me, including you, thank you very much.
  • Bere1416
    Bere1416 Posts: 6 Member
    edited February 2018
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    @JeromeBarry1 I'm 22 years old and 5'2.
  • Bere1416
    Bere1416 Posts: 6 Member
    edited February 2018
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    @JustSomeEm Yeah I'm still sore. I have convinced myself to keep going, to finish the 4 weeks of the workout program along with healthy eating. It does hurt to see the scale. I'm trying to not get the weight to disappoint me, I've tried to not weigh myself but it's really hard. I might just tell my mom to hide my scale at her place, it's probably the only way I can stop putting myself down.
  • ColoradoLivingg
    ColoradoLivingg Posts: 17 Member
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    I definitely understand that relationship with the scale. I've been there myself. As others have said, there are reasons for the gains. Just take it one day at a time and breathe :) You could also try taking your measurements once a month to see the differences that way instead of just the scale. I've seen others post about the scale not moving one month but they lost inches.
  • Bere1416
    Bere1416 Posts: 6 Member
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    @ColoradoLivingg you're right. I really need to get rid of the scale and replace it with a measuring tape. You know sometimes when I look in the mirror I do feel like I've gotten thinner, but then I weigh myself and I look at myself in the mirror again and I see myself fatter. I think the scale is really messing with my mind.
  • h1udd
    h1udd Posts: 623 Member
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    the scale definitely messes with your mind ... I have minimal issues with weight, but honestly I am lean, I am losing fat, I am doing good ... BUT ! ... my mood for the day is so often skewed by the scale.

    I can be dropping weight at a regular amount, but get on the scale in the morning, see I am 0.5kg heavier look in the mirror and see myself as fat and get annoyed ..... yet the next day, I have lost that 0.5kg and a bit more .. look in the mirror and I am looking ripped :sunglasses:

    there is no getting away from it .. I weigh twice a day so I know exactly what causes my fluctuations, ... ie I had a can of Monster energy drink at lunch ... I guarantee I will be 0.5kg heavier when I get home .. I retain water with energy drinks !
  • AnotherPlate
    AnotherPlate Posts: 30 Member
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    Have patience. You won't get to your goal overnight. It's a process of learning new habits and discarding old ones, that takes some time. On the bright side, your new way of thinking eventually becomes second nature when you stick with it long enough. Success will come so effortlessly.

    Please do not starve yourself. That's no way to live.

  • ColoradoLivingg
    ColoradoLivingg Posts: 17 Member
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    @Bere1416 As h1udd said, the scale definitely messes with your mind. This happens to me a lot. My clothes will be feeling better and I'll be feeling better but as soon as I step on the scale, if the number is higher than I thought, it pushes all of that away. I myself need to work on measurements more so I can actually see a physical change, rather than just the numbers on the scale. It's all a process but we can do it!
  • DebLaBounty
    DebLaBounty Posts: 1,172 Member
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    Take some before and after photos, maybe just once a week. Compare your first week to one you've taken four weeks later. Good idea to use a measuring tape.

    Are you using MFP? Honestly, if you follow the logging protocols and eat within the calorie goal MFP gives you, you will lose weight AND fuel your body so your mind will function and you can keep up with the kids. At minimum, you need to eat 1200 calories a day. Good luck!
  • becaholic
    becaholic Posts: 21 Member
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    Maybe you gained some muscle. Maybe aunt Flo is on her way (sorry if that is rude) which also causes water weight. For me, when it's that time, I always gain about 10 lbs. Maybe you ate something a little too salty. The next week coming up should be the week where you pick a day to weigh and keep that your day! You have the power!

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