Not feeling it today

I would just practice some walking since you’ll be walking on your vacation. Losing some weight will help. Carrying extra weight is hard on the joints.

To lose weight, however, you need to eat a less than you do now.

Read the stickies at the top, lots of good info.

For now, I would stick to walking. Get out in nature as much as you can. It will help both get you back in shape and to feel better mentally/emotionally.

As L1zard Queen said, your weight loss will come from your food choices. Focus on that. Log everything you eat and figure out what you can cut back, skip, or exchange for something with fewer calories.

Man, vent away. Sometimes it helps just getting it out.

Where to start - just pick something. Focus on your nutrition. Focus on being able to walk 100 meters at a brisk pace. Focus on being able to climb a few flights of stairs without stopping. I spent well over a year just getting my nutrition handled before I began serious gym activity. I tried to be active and learn how to eat well at the same time... it ended poorly, got me down, and I spiraled. Got up to my heaviest ever (278). Then my mom had a series of bad strokes, and I woke the heck up. For me, it took hitting an emotional low and seeing my mom almost die from weight complications (she was 320ish at that time) after her strokes. For you, it could be as simple as just choosing something to focus on.

For the doubts, have them. Feel free. But try to stay active on here, and exercise however you can. If you keep doubting while staying active, you'll eventually see positive changes, and those doubts will morph into little balls of excitement. I doubt the heck out of myself all the time. But, I've still lost weight. I still get better at lifting things. I still manage to jump rope longer each time I test myself. Everyone doubts themselves.

For motivation, try to find things you enjoy. As the weather gets better, do some laps (around the house, office, parking lot, park, etc) at different parts of the day. Get some small dumbbells and just curl them while watching tv or sitting on the porch. Stretch each day. You start small and you build. If you really need, see a physical therapist or a personal trainer - even if it is for just a few visits so that you can get a professional's opinion on safe and effective movements.

For me, the only way I pushed past my injuries was to do little things I enjoyed. When I felt like crap because walking up 1 set of stairs put me out of breath, just walking the neighbor's dog each lunch break made me feel better. That little bit of happiness helped me just deal with the injuries and poor health, and work past them. Our bodies adapt, and we do more.

It can be a slow process, and that can add to the helpless or negative feelings. But just know that your journey is what you make of it. Just try, one little thing at a time, and you'll get there. Before you know it, you'll be complaining that it started raining in the middle of your run.