I’ve been dieting since January and am 34 pounds down. But I’ve found myself feeling sad and fatigued anytime I’m cutting calories to lose weight. Also, i guess I probably have a mild food addiction, which is how I got overweight to begin with. I don’t really overeat A LOT, but I just seem to only choose the most calorically dense options available and so gaining weight is so easy. I take adhd meds and honestly it helps me control my appetite a bit (When I had to get off of them during my pregnancy it was like something unleashed within me. I could not stop craving.) But even with that, as a new stay at home mom, I find myself surrounded by food and boredom. Ubereats is my worst enemy! But I’m also steadily losing weight, so I guess I’m not failing. I just hate that my whole day and mind is fixated on how to not cheat/how to not eat too much. I feel like I can diet for a few months but then I need a break. But I know that if I take a break I’ll start gaining. It’s disheartening. And I’m also having worse insomnia because so get so hungry at night but don’t want to cheat.
I guess I am just frustrated and need encouragement. I still have months of this to go and my body is not changing as fast as I want it too and combined with not enjoying the pleasures of the food I used to use to comfort me, I guess I am feeling empty in every way.
I know I’ll be happier in the long run at a lower weight, but dieting is painful and i honestly feel like an addict trying to stay away from a drug that’s readily available-fatty, sugary, salty foods. I can’t eat them in small portions either because I lose control and will eat a lot. I can only eat during my official cheat meals without losing control. Sigh.
I need encouragement.