Oh snap, things have gotta change

After being overweight/obese for all of my adult life and not being too bothered about it, I had my « oh snap, things have gotta change » moment. On a flight about a month ago, my seatbelt didn’t fit. I squirmed, squeezed, and sucked in, but there was no click. So I did what every “I’m fat, but I’m not THAT fat” person would do and covered my lap with my coat and mentally berated airlines for being cheap and cutting costs because CLEARLY this was a smaller than average seatbelt.

And then the same thing happened again with a different airline.

So I said to myself “it can’t be that ALL airline seatbelts are too small... I’M too big”. And then I weighed myself for the first time in 3 or 4 years. Always keeping in mind that I simply must weigh the same as then. I clung to my heavy, but not so bad because plenty of people are that size, number of 250lbs. I mean, what, I carried it well, right? And 250 wasn’t so bad. I means it wasn’t 300. That number 300 was always so far away and clearly I’d never let myself get that bad. I stepped on my scale. Not only had I cracked that scary 300 lbs number, i freaking surpassed it at 321.

Diabetes. High blood pressure. Heart attacked. These all danced through my head like sugarplum fairies for 6 year olds. So I cried. And cried. And cried. Then decided that I had to do something, anything.

I started a meal system kind of like Nutrisystem. 2 weeks, so far, so good. Down 4 pounds! And I bought an exercise bike, which will arrive this weekend.

This is my first attempt at a lifestyle change. Im hoping that my lifestyle changes stick. I need some support though! Any support! Because it’s hard trying to lose half of your body weight in secret. So add me, please! I’m still figuring out the settings on this app, but I plan to let all of my stuff be shareable with friends.