Scared to weigh or measure myself

Dont weight yourself. There are all these 'rules' about how we should do thimgs in life, but the fact is, it sounds like you know yourself, and you know you would not benefit from the measuring.
Its a wonderful feeling to feel fit, healthy, detoxed from a bit of sweating and toned.
THAT FEELING IS REAL! Its healthy hormones and neurotransmitters.
There is no reason to expose yourself to weight and measure when just the thought of it triggers anxiety in you.
In life, sometimes we have to expose ourselves to anxity triggers - for instance if I really want a dog but picking up poo on a bag makes me anxious, then I have to expose to anxiety to overcome it.
But with weight and measure it doesnt appear that there will be a benefit for you.
The benefit for you is working out and being healthy . THAT IS REAL.
Just perhaps be aware of becoming obsessive. Its fair enough to want to work out for an hour a day as part of your mental and phsical wellbing, but if you have to workout 2 hours a day, or its the end of the world when you dont get to work out for a day here and there, then you need psychological support.
It sounds like you know yourself well, so just be real about where you are at, and whether its a good time to get more support from your team to stop you going down a certain track.
Apart from that, dont weight or measure, and dont worry about not weighting or measuring. its overrated and lots of people never do it and live happy healhy lives!
Bask in the feeling of healthy and alive! And as Byrin Katie says "what would your life be like without that thought?". What would your life be like if you let go of the thought, "i shoud weigh"? Just let it go compeltely. Forget about it. Does life feel easier, freer, calmer? Focus on the good stuff you have going on.
Take care

I agree that these are important things to tell a therapist or medical professional.

In the short term, nobody is forcing you to weigh yourself. Just don't. If you feel good then count that as a measure of success, it means a lot more. If your old pattern was weigh-panic-binge-restrict then cutting out the first step can't hurt in disrupting the whole thing.

I felt like this for a long time. Sometimes I think it helps to hear “This way of thinking is not normal or healthy. You can live a happier life; it’s possible! You can navigate your way around food without feeling terrible guilt. Life is not just one big starve-binge-guilt-sadness struggle.”

It won’t be like this forever! Your first step is to find professionals who can help you break this cycle. I had amazing wonderful success with a behavioral therapist. She helped me identify how long I’d been treating food this way, why it might have started, and what about my life was causing me such distress that I would make those eating choices. Then, she listened to my goals and helped me adopt one tiny tiny change at a time to help reach those goals.

I haven’t binged in about 8 months, and I feel so much more at ease around food and my body image. I feel like my life and my mindset have COMPLETELY turned around.

I searched up behavioral therapists who specialized in disordered eating in my area, reached out by email to schedule an initial meeting to see how we got along, and it snowballed from there. If you don’t have insurance, see if you can reach out to the people who care about you (parents maybe?) and let them know you’re struggling. You can also use free counseling lines too, in the meantime.

We care about you; please let us know if you’re able to find someone to help you make a plan! (And don’t go near the scale for now; you don’t need the anxiety!)