Restricting/binging cycles
umbramirror
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I'm embarrassed to write this, but I really need some help and was hoping you all could give me some advice. Thank you so much in advance.
I have a history of restrictive eating and binging, but the behavior has never prolonged enough for an eating disorder diagnosis. This past month I have had 2 binges. One 3 weeks ago and the other about 30 minutes ago. Before that, I haven't had any since before my weight loss. I am incredibly disappointed in myself, and I'm afraid of what's to come. I was attempting to talk myself out of a binge all weekend (there is something about being in this house without going out for 2 days that makes me want to stuff my face!) I can go into more detail about this if it will help.
In about 1 year and 3 months I lost 92 lbs. For reference, I'm a 5'6" female with a medium/large frame weighing ~128 lbs. For most of my weight loss I was consuming around 1200-1300 calories with light to moderate exercise. I had set a target weight of 145 lbs but once I reached it, I had trouble maintaining the weight because my activity level is rather high and actually lost another 17 lbs. Recently I decided that I had lost enough weight, had reached my goal, and wanted to begin the process of maintaining. I chose to begin increasing my calories slowly, with a daily caloric intake of ~1500. I walk for about 2 hours or so 5 days a week and do calisthenics for about an hour 5-6 days a week.
Back to the binging... the first binge followed a day of being off plan. I had gone to a family event where food was being put in my face all day and I chose not to restrict myself. I exercised that morning and walked a good amount, but felt awful about what I had done. The next day at home, after a long day of travelling and a late dinner, I had my very binge. This afternoon, I binged again. I had been fantasizing about binging all weekend but had been talking myself out of it but I caved anyway.
I have feeling terrible over the past week because my body has been retaining water like crazy. The heat has been insane here, and I have been sweating almost non stop because we don't have air conditioning. I rehydrate myself but it seems that whatever I put into my body, it holds on to. Everyday it seems I am putting on a little weight, and after eating pizza last night (which wasn't that much), I put on another 1.4 lbs of water weight. Over the past week, that's a total of 2 lbs. I started to feel very frustrated, thinking what's the point of all of this work I'm doing if the scale is going to keep going up. I just couldn't take it anymore and gave in today. I exercised in the morning but have already surpassed what I would typically have calorie wise by 200 calories, and that's without dinner included.
I don't want to gain weight but don't understand what's going on with my body. Is this weight gain truly only water weight...? Am I doing something wrong daily that's making this happen? I rarely if ever see such increases on the scale that remain for so long and it's taking a toll on me. Also, the fact that I feel so incredibly bloated and weighed down.
Is there something I can do to salvage the day and get back on track? I'm tired of this water retention and afraid of what I'll see on the scale tomorrow morning.
I have a history of restrictive eating and binging, but the behavior has never prolonged enough for an eating disorder diagnosis. This past month I have had 2 binges. One 3 weeks ago and the other about 30 minutes ago. Before that, I haven't had any since before my weight loss. I am incredibly disappointed in myself, and I'm afraid of what's to come. I was attempting to talk myself out of a binge all weekend (there is something about being in this house without going out for 2 days that makes me want to stuff my face!) I can go into more detail about this if it will help.
In about 1 year and 3 months I lost 92 lbs. For reference, I'm a 5'6" female with a medium/large frame weighing ~128 lbs. For most of my weight loss I was consuming around 1200-1300 calories with light to moderate exercise. I had set a target weight of 145 lbs but once I reached it, I had trouble maintaining the weight because my activity level is rather high and actually lost another 17 lbs. Recently I decided that I had lost enough weight, had reached my goal, and wanted to begin the process of maintaining. I chose to begin increasing my calories slowly, with a daily caloric intake of ~1500. I walk for about 2 hours or so 5 days a week and do calisthenics for about an hour 5-6 days a week.
Back to the binging... the first binge followed a day of being off plan. I had gone to a family event where food was being put in my face all day and I chose not to restrict myself. I exercised that morning and walked a good amount, but felt awful about what I had done. The next day at home, after a long day of travelling and a late dinner, I had my very binge. This afternoon, I binged again. I had been fantasizing about binging all weekend but had been talking myself out of it but I caved anyway.
I have feeling terrible over the past week because my body has been retaining water like crazy. The heat has been insane here, and I have been sweating almost non stop because we don't have air conditioning. I rehydrate myself but it seems that whatever I put into my body, it holds on to. Everyday it seems I am putting on a little weight, and after eating pizza last night (which wasn't that much), I put on another 1.4 lbs of water weight. Over the past week, that's a total of 2 lbs. I started to feel very frustrated, thinking what's the point of all of this work I'm doing if the scale is going to keep going up. I just couldn't take it anymore and gave in today. I exercised in the morning but have already surpassed what I would typically have calorie wise by 200 calories, and that's without dinner included.
I don't want to gain weight but don't understand what's going on with my body. Is this weight gain truly only water weight...? Am I doing something wrong daily that's making this happen? I rarely if ever see such increases on the scale that remain for so long and it's taking a toll on me. Also, the fact that I feel so incredibly bloated and weighed down.
Is there something I can do to salvage the day and get back on track? I'm tired of this water retention and afraid of what I'll see on the scale tomorrow morning.
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You need to seek the help of professionals.8
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Another binge is not a cure for a food addiction.
We can't offer medical advice but you need to sit down with someone, face to face. They can help you with the Cue Urge Reward Habit Cycles. Redefining norms is a powerful tool. When old food cues lose their ability to entice... you can break the cycles.
We can moderate ourselves with food and eat within our own means. I'm not on a diet, I'm on a food budget.6 -
You're binging because you're under-eating.
Set your Goal here to "Maintain." When you exercise, add it to the Exercise tab and EAT MORE.
I would guess you need to be set at somewhere around 1800-2000 for your daily bottom line goal and add a few hundred more on days you exercise. Otherwise this continues. You may see a slight bump up on the scale - but stay the course over a period of months.
Weight fluctuations happen - especially in maintenance.
This is a good article, often linked on this forum:
http://physiqonomics.com/the-weird-and-highly-annoying-world-of-scale-weight-and-fluctuations/18 -
So I was in somewhat of a similar situation to you but not because I have a history of restrictive eating and binging but because I went through a period of stress where I lost my appetite and was undereating. What followed was hunger so intense, I was eating at a large surplus every day and still am eating in order to recover from losing weight I shouldn't have lost that taxed my body in a multitude of ways. If you're curious, the thread is here: https://community.myfitnesspal.com/en/discussion/10748681/im-not-really-sure-whats-happening/p1
Anyway, since you DO have a history of restrictive eating and binging, there are a few things you need to understand. Your calorie intake does not match your activity level. This is why you're "binging". You're at the lower end of the BMI range, sure, but with your stats and activity level, your maintenance calories surely are not 1500. Eating so little is why you're binging, fantasizing about binging and fighting off the urges, and retaining water weight. If you ate your actual maintenance calories you'd most likely feel less of an urge to binge and would not retain the amount of water who have been. Increase your calories and stay away from the scale for a little bit until your water weight sorts itself out. Trust me, I know.19 -
As others have said, I think you are seriously under-eating and that's at least part of the issue.
I don't want to make it more complicated, but have you considered reducing your exercise? You're getting a minimum of two hours a day, but many days three. If that works with your schedule and your body, that's great, I'm just asking from a sustainability point of view. You don't say how old you are. I don't have time in my day to exercise that much. The most I do during my work week is about one and a half to two hours, on the days I both walk/run and do bodyweight exercises. And that's only two work days a week. One weekend day I'll get about three hours. At one point I had to make myself cut back a bit on what I was doing, because I knew it wouldn't be sustainable long-term. So you could both cut back a little on the exercise and up your calories, because 1500 is still going to be under your maintenance even if you reduce your exercise a bit. If that's not something you think is necessary, like I said, I agree with others that you just need to eat more.4 -
First, I'm sorry you're going through this. Second, please see a professional who can help you with your binging cycle. A non-diagnosis doesn't mean there isn't an issue going on. For me personally, I worked with a therapist and got to a place where I stopped restricting my food choices and stopped thinking of food as "good" or "bad" and stopped saying I had gone off track or off the wagon if I did eat "bad" foods. I still eat at a deficit, and make more choices that make my body feel energized, but I don't beat myself up for having fried chicken or a donut or whatever. It's stopped my binging sessions almost completely, and when it does happen I have the tools I need to say hey, tomorrow is a new day. I only got here with professional help. I highly recommend that route.7
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Thank you to all who have responded so far. I know that it would be wise for me to seek guidance with a professional but I haven't had the means as of yet. I am very aware of how unhealthy this all is and it worries me. I have been living in another country for the past few months with my partner and haven't had access to mental health care. I will be back to my home country this week and am going to look back into seeing a therapist. I have been in the past but not for eating disorders, rather for panic disorder, depression, and trauma. I've worked on myself a lot since then, but the restricting/binging is coming back again. Time to go back and analyze again.
@Maxematics Thank you for this. I've been reading a bit of your thread and it has been helpful so far. I'll continue through the entirety of it. Since I haven't reached the end, I hope that your situation is sorting itself out and that you're improving. From what you've said, it seems like you are and that's great.
Reaching maintenance calories is a goal of mine and I've been trying to increase slowly, but the hunger has been getting the best of me which I guess is why the binges have been occurring. I'm terrified of gaining weight and engaging in old habits, which is why I wanted to do this gradually. I might have to reassess again it seems.
@veganbaum I've been in another country with my partner and have had a lot of time during the day to myself while he works. I wasn't able to find a job, and was walking around and exploring the city every day. I would workout in the morning and then walk around for a few hours. You're right in that I should decrease my exercise and I will be once I return to my home country. This influx of activity was definitely temporary. I love to walk though. I'm 29 years old by the way.
Also, thank you for the advice.
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I'm in treatment for bulimia. I'm overall muuuch better, but I had a binge on Sunday June 9th. Lots of things lead to it, which I can identify, but it still happened and I ate like 4k calories that day and felt like crap. I find the best thing to do is just move on and keep eating normally, not drop down to a massive deficit. You also are under-eating--you probably need a lot more food with your activity levels.
One binge now and again won't actually affect your weight much at all. Here it is the 16th and I'm still the same weight I've been since around October. (I fluctuate between 3 pounds)
A lot of the time a binge is a biological response to restriction--your body is afraid of starving. The act of restriction itself starts a whole host of mental health issues as well (look up the Minnesota Starvation Experiment). I used food to distract myself from emotions that scared me. Or I'd ignore my emotions--and restrict my food--and that is a recipe for a binge and/or a big crying fit.
I'm still not perfect. And I'm not sure I'll ever be entirely normal around food. But from months of loose logging I now know how much I actually need to eat to maintain, and it's enough that it's easier to fit in the foods I want without too much stress. I still exercise too, but I limit it to an hour a day max of vigorous exercise and I make sure to eat back at LEAST half my exercise calories.
I wish you luck and I'm glad you're looking into getting back to therapy. You seem motivated to heal and that's half the battle right there! Rooting for you.10 -
@staticsplit I'm sorry that you're going through something similar but thank you for your support. ♡
It is difficult transitioning from losing for so long to eating more when I used to have such an unhealthy relationship with food. I still do in a way, but I'm working on it and it seems you are too. 😊 I have to find a healthy balance even though it's tougher than I thought it would be. The water retention I'm experiencing right now is really making me have to work harder to not engage in unhealthy habits.4 -
cmriverside wrote: »You're binging because you're under-eating.
Set your Goal here to "Maintain." When you exercise, add it to the Exercise tab and EAT MORE.
I would guess you need to be set at somewhere around 1800-2000 for your daily bottom line goal and add a few hundred more on days you exercise. Otherwise this continues. You may see a slight bump up on the scale - but stay the course over a period of months.
Weight fluctuations happen - especially in maintenance.
This is a good article, often linked on this forum:
http://physiqonomics.com/the-weird-and-highly-annoying-world-of-scale-weight-and-fluctuations/
QFT.
You lost fast with a large deficit and you're now lean enough that your continuing deficits are causing a blow back. By continuing to push down you're potentially increasing your chances of going up instead of protecting your loss.
Find maintenance. Maintenance IS a range. If you're not used to weight trend apps figure a more than 5lb range.
If you're *feeling bloated* by definition you're holding on to water (sodium, hormones, food in transit, injury, what have you) and you would expect your weight to show higher than baseline.
And most emphatically all that @Maxematics also said!5 -
Hugs3
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cmriverside wrote: »You're binging because you're under-eating.
Set your Goal here to "Maintain." When you exercise, add it to the Exercise tab and EAT MORE.
I would guess you need to be set at somewhere around 1800-2000 for your daily bottom line goal and add a few hundred more on days you exercise. Otherwise this continues. You may see a slight bump up on the scale - but stay the course over a period of months.
Weight fluctuations happen - especially in maintenance.
This is a good article, often linked on this forum:
http://physiqonomics.com/the-weird-and-highly-annoying-world-of-scale-weight-and-fluctuations/
QFT.
You lost fast with a large deficit and you're now lean enough that your continuing deficits are causing a blow back. By continuing to push down you're potentially increasing your chances of going up instead of protecting your loss.
Find maintenance. Maintenance IS a range. If you're not used to weight trend apps figure a more than 5lb range.
If you're *feeling bloated* by definition you're holding on to water (sodium, hormones, food in transit, injury, what have you) and you would expect your weight to show higher than baseline.
And most emphatically all that @Maxematics also said!
This makes sense. I've been reading a lot about this topic since I posted this thread and I've realized that this is what has going on. Thanks to the thread started by @Maxematics, it started to become clear.
What do you think constitutes a "blow back"? And do you think the best way to combat it is to increase my calories more? I've been averaging around 1500 calories, which I know is too low but I increased from 1300 and I'm trying to increase each week. Maybe I need a more drastic change? I'm new to this and definitely don't want to loss the lean mass I've gained.
I didn't feel bloated this morning, but I'm still up on the scale. 0.8 lbs from last week to be exact. The temperature has finally gone back to a reasonable height. I'll be travelling a lot tomorrow and will basically be on vacation for a week, so hopefully my body will recover.
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150poundsofme wrote: »Hugs
Thank you. This made me feel nice this morning. ♡2 -
umbramirror wrote: »What do you think constitutes a "blow back"? And do you think the best way to combat it is to increase my calories more?
Glad to see you're researching!
In the context of this discussion the "blow back" I was talking about is the propensity to binge that you've experienced.
As to the best way to combat the issue, that's why I Quoted for Truth (QFT) @cmriverside 's post!
It contains the majority of the answers you will need.
Majority because it doesn't address a mental component. However, it is my personal belief that you start with the "easy" to fix! Under-eating, physically, by itself, and especially for leaner people (i.e. people with fat levels that are commensurate to what one would expect to see on someone below BMI 20 to 22), can cause binging and food ideation. Therefore, removing that stressor is the starting point. If you need additional help to implement the removal, or if you need to address concerns that remain once you've already removed it, then, of course, you do so!
That post also includes a reference to one of the best articles you will find anywhere about water weight fluctuations. Based on some of your posts (and since you also do not appear to be smoothing out your fluctuations with a weight trend app), reading that article a time or two would be time well invested!
You can do this!
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Ah, I see. Sorry, I thought it was a special term for what I was experiencing with the deficit and then the resulting water retention. 😂 No, it's just me potentially "blowing" it all by binging rather than simply just increasing my daily calorie intake. *Slaps forehead*
Thank you for your help, also @cmriverside of course. I'm going to go read that article now!3 -
@PAV8888, if you don't mind answering, I completed a TDEE calculator from damnripped.com and got the following results:
BMI: 20.5
BMR: 1326 calories
TDEE: 2187 calories
Does this look about right to you? And do you think I should just go right to eating that amount starting this week or should I start around 1800 and see how it goes?
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umbramirror wrote: »@PAV8888, if you don't mind answering, I completed a TDEE calculator from damnripped.com and got the following results:
BMI: 20.5
BMR: 1326 calories
TDEE: 2187 calories
Does this look about right to you? And do you think I should just go right to eating that amount starting this week or should I start around 1800 and see how it goes?
While I'm not specifically the person you asked but....
I would say that looks like a good start. Honestly, just start eating those calories the "slow increase" doesn't seem like it'll be beneficial to you. In that... 1800 is still a deficit of nearly 400 calories from that TDEE estimation.
Eat the TDEE calories... if you're going to continue to weigh yourself frequently, use a weight trend app and be mentally prepared to see an increase on the scale because you'll have more food in your system, more glycogen in your muscles, etc, etc. Give it a while (at least a month, preferably 2) and see what your weight is doing and make adjustments based on that, still losing weight -> eat more.3 -
umbramirror wrote: »@PAV8888, if you don't mind answering, I completed a TDEE calculator from damnripped.com and got the following results:
BMI: 20.5
BMR: 1326 calories
TDEE: 2187 calories
Does this look about right to you? And do you think I should just go right to eating that amount starting this week or should I start around 1800 and see how it goes?
I'm not Pav, but I think that looks about right. I'm at a slightly lower BMI, but around the same level of activity, and that TDEE isn't much higher than mine is.
I'd say it's worth a try, and seeing how you feel. You might get a little bit of a bump on a scale -- 4 pounds or so -- but it's not "true" weight, it's just water weight from repleted glycogen stores, and literally poop/food weight.2 -
Yes I think you should go right to eating your TDEE and fully expect to gain a couple pounds of water. Your body loses water while in a deficit and then gains it back when you aren't in a deficit. It is your body's natural reaction and nothing you can do to change that by delaying maintenance. You will just be losing even more fat delaying it to only gain the water back at a later date. You just have to accept two pounds or so of water in your body as part of being a human being.
You are hungry from too much of a deficit and are binging and fanaticizing about food. The physical reaction won't stop at 1500 or 1600 or 1700. You need to feed your body maintenance or even a little above for the hormones to regulate again. Once the physical reaction to food restriction stops, it will hopefully be easier to deal with the mental aspect. Your fear of gaining weight, even natural water weight, needs to be dealt with the aid of a professional. I wish you the best of luck.3 -
PAV was PAVnapping and has nothing substantive to add to what the three ladies above me have just said! @collectingblues especially is an inadvertent "expert" at retaining water for obnoxious lengths of time!
Honest answer to your calories question above?
Depending on the accuracy of your logging and BMR and how closely you will end up tracking to the population mean?
You are reporting approximately 3 hours of walking and calisthenics a day and proposing an activity factor of 1.65 based on your BMR of 1326
Scooby's (and many other calculators I am sure) would assign an AF of 1.725 just to your calisthenics (nothing else) and would be pushing it to 1.9 depending on how vigorously you walk (terrain etc). Let's just say that 3 hours of *my* walking reliably pushes *me* into an AF of 1.9, if not 1.95
So my first "instinctive" reaction was to say MFP very active and to maintain to start. (MFP Very Active is an AF of 1.8).
Alternatively you could start with MFP Active (AF=1.6) and then add the calisthenics as a separate exercise. (It will still come close to around 1.8 in terms of calories overall).
I doubt that any of these are final answers.
But 2300 to 2500 Cal is a heck of a lot closer to actual maintenance than 1500. And your health is starting to say that, at this point of time, you are PHYSICALLY much better positioned to tolerate an over-shoot than a continued under-shoot.
And of course reducing activity is also an option if you don't want to immediately increase calories to the degree you need to. Net calories are what drive weight change.3 -
Yes I think you should go right to eating your TDEE and fully expect to gain a couple pounds of water. Your body loses water while in a deficit and then gains it back when you aren't in a deficit. It is your body's natural reaction and nothing you can do to change that by delaying maintenance. You will just be losing even more fat delaying it to only gain the water back at a later date. You just have to accept two pounds or so of water in your body as part of being a human being.
You are hungry from too much of a deficit and are binging and fanaticizing about food. The physical reaction won't stop at 1500 or 1600 or 1700. You need to feed your body maintenance or even a little above for the hormones to regulate again. Once the physical reaction to food restriction stops, it will hopefully be easier to deal with the mental aspect. Your fear of gaining weight, even natural water weight, needs to be dealt with the aid of a professional. I wish you the best of luck.
In your experience, how long does it take for the hormones to regulate again?0 -
umbramirror wrote: »PAV8888, if you don't mind answering, I completed a TDEE calculator from damnripped.com and got the following results:
BMI: 20.5
BMR: 1326 calories
TDEE: 2187 calories
Does this look about right to you? And do you think I should just go right to eating that amount starting this week or should I start around 1800 and see how it goes?
I'm also not PAV, but I wanted to chime in because you and I have similar TDEEs (mine's around 2200) and I feel so hungry that I want to gnaw my own arm off when I drop below 1400-ish calories. I feel best during weight loss when I'm around 1600-1800 calories (and I lose about 1 pound a week or 5 pounds a month that way). Just in case a personal story helps :flowerforyou:5 -
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Tolstolobik wrote: »In your experience, how long does it take for the hormones to regulate again?
Well, I'm not @dmt4641 and I would love to hear her answer; but, as far as I know the answer of how long depends on the individual and their individual circumstances and there doesn't exist a universal answer.
It can range from almost complete recovery of hormonal levels after a few days of eating at maintenance to... well... an extremely long time! With the vast majority of people somewhere in between!!!
Maybe a new post with details of particular circumstances might help?0 -
Wow! I have the same situation, but I had decided to eat whatever I want without counting calories (I don't want to be upset and worse - be discouraged by knowing how much I ate) once a week. I do it on the day I weigh in (of course, after weighing in in the morning), so I have a whole week ahead of me to follow my plan and it works. I progress nicely. Your body needs a jolt and overeating does it, otherwise, it will be in permanent starvation mode, which is not good. As long as you're not throwing up, you're OK. Your mind plays "I'm guilty, horribly guilty" and this is not very good help in the situation when your mind is set to binge. Try my method: eat, but shut the guilty feeling, and who knows, it might work for you too. I'm not a doctor or a dietician but a person who deals with the same problem occasionally. Good luck!!!3
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Tolstolobik wrote: »In your experience, how long does it take for the hormones to regulate again?
Well, I'm not @dmt4641 and I would love to hear her answer; but, as far as I know the answer of how long depends on the individual and their individual circumstances and there doesn't exist a universal answer.
It can range from almost complete recovery of hormonal levels after a few days of eating at maintenance to... well... an extremely long time! With the vast majority of people somewhere in between!!!
Maybe a new post with details of particular circumstances might help?
Thank you PAV for your reply. It's been about three months since I've entered maintenance. BMI maintenance range 19.3-20. I lost 50+ lbs. slowly over the course of 4+ years using several unsustainable methods. Only the last couple of lbs. we're lost by counting calories. I haven't figured out what my TDEE is. I thought my Fitbit would help but hasn't. I spend a good part of my day on my feet working with my hands, lifting things, putting things away. A lot of my activity is not step based. I recently discovered METs (Metabolic Equivalent of Task). I am trying it out to see if it would be somewhat a better estimator. Have you had any experience with METs?
In terms of hunger. I've been averaging ~1900 calories over the course of this time. There are many days when I feel insatiable no matter what macros/high satiety foods I've experimented with.
My gut feeling is that I have to be patient and wait longer for hormones to normalize(a good part of my weighloss was done by cycles of heavy restriction alternated with overeating). Thankful that I finally came to the truth of CICO! So thankful to this community. You, among several others, have been extremely helpful in solidifying this truth.2 -
Tolstolobik wrote: »Tolstolobik wrote: »In your experience, how long does it take for the hormones to regulate again?
Well, I'm not @dmt4641 and I would love to hear her answer; but, as far as I know the answer of how long depends on the individual and their individual circumstances and there doesn't exist a universal answer.
It can range from almost complete recovery of hormonal levels after a few days of eating at maintenance to... well... an extremely long time! With the vast majority of people somewhere in between!!!
Maybe a new post with details of particular circumstances might help?
Thank you PAV for your reply. It's been about three months since I've entered maintenance. BMI maintenance range 19.3-20. I lost 50+ lbs. slowly over the course of 4+ years using several unsustainable methods. Only the last couple of lbs. we're lost by counting calories. I haven't figured out what my TDEE is. I thought my Fitbit would help but hasn't. I spend a good part of my day on my feet working with my hands, lifting things, putting things away. A lot of my activity is not step based. I recently discovered METs (Metabolic Equivalent of Task). I am trying it out to see if it would be somewhat a better estimator. Have you had any experience with METs?
In terms of hunger. I've been averaging ~1900 calories over the course of this time. There are many days when I feel insatiable no matter what macros/high satiety foods I've experimented with.
My gut feeling is that I have to be patient and wait longer for hormones to normalize(a good part of my weighloss was done by cycles of heavy restriction alternated with overeating). Thankful that I finally came to the truth of CICO! So thankful to this community. You, among several others, have been extremely helpful in solidifying this truth.
Hmmm.... I was talking about starting a new thread; but I misspoke and said post See how easy it is to say/imply the wrong thing in a moment of inattention? A new thread might get more answers for you from others!
A quick note because I saw somewhere above about a 1 day re-feed. Optimal re-feeds seem to be 48 hours prioritizing carbs and diet breaks at least 14 days. Both at maintenance calories. See "on re-feeds and diet breaks" thread.
Please note that unlike other people who do post on these boards who may happen to be physicians, or nurses, or dietitians, or PT's, or knowledgeable nutritionists, I am just a person who discovered MFP just about 5 years ago, and read the FAQ's and absorbed some knowledge that made sense from the boards, cross verified it with studies I could find online (and which I am barely able to validate as to whether they are of good quality or not), filtered it through my own biases and observations, and half-haphazardly satisfied my own curiosity about subjects that interest me! Because I found the boards very helpful when I "discovered" the "secret" of CICO I got involved with the community forums. But please don't expect gold in extremely complex situations!
METs are used by MFP and by Fitbit and by a lot of other devices in order to estimate calories spent. All the devices do is translate what they're able to detect into a MET value for a certain amount of time and use that as their basis of calculating the calories spent. Of course if they fail to detect the movement in the first place... well then, they don't assign a value!
But both Fitbit and MFP appear to use the Mifflin formula for BMR and then use an Activity Factor to multiply it by and arrive at estimated calories out. On MFP this is derived from a selection of 4 values (sedentary, lightly active, etc) and on Fitbit it is derived using the detected movement, which is translated into a single MET value per 5 minute increment, and then the calories out are estimated by aggregating the 5 minute increments over the 1440 minutes of the day.
In my personal experience Fitbit seems to under-estimate a little bit static/non sensing and over-estimate sensed movement. And I suspect they justify that as encouraging people to move more. Of course this is an n=1 observation. And an n=1 which is pretty well captured by Fitbit at that with a less than 5% TDEE over-estimate over several years.
The truth is that our own logging of food intake and our own body's deviation from the mean influence just as much as anything the *apparent* accuracy of whichever device we're using!!!
In the end the only thing that counts is what our weight does over time (see weight trend apps and web sites)
And, as many people have found out, even the weight trend STILL doesn't tell us anything about body weight composition and long term water retention!
And yes, long term water retention can happen. Ask me how I know about weeping edema and apparent weight given that my mom passed away after months of being unable to eat properly due to cancer. But extreme water weight issues are not only due to a terminal conditions! Extreme stress, long term undernourishment, extreme exercise, etc can all affect things.
I don't have a full answer for you and I don't know that I have a suggestion other than to be patient and fight the good fight!
@psychod787 's answer has been a slow and deliberate bulk and accepting some weight regain till he can get his body to a more long term sustainable state. Whether it is the increase in weight (and fat level) or that a long enough time has passed, he is starting to feel better and less famished and has accomplished that with a relative modest regain.
The Minnesota participants resolved with time and varying levels of regain. The deficit that was used was 50% <-- how many people on MFP apply 50% of TDEE deficits? Apparently quite a few! The differentiating factor there is that they pushed the participants to very low weight and fat conditions through a combination of diet and exercise. The men WERE eating 1500 calories, right? How much does that have implications for MFPers at a sub 20 BMI? Especially if we accept that women require slightly more fat for a healthy hormonal balance.
Minnesota strongly suggested that apparent ED symptoms resolve with re-feeding. As in physical re-nurishment may play a significant role in resolving ED ideation. From what I understand most protocols that deal with people who have an ED suggest a re-feed phase to at least a BMI of 20 in part because of that reason.
I can personally contribute only a little bit of hope given that I took care to lose at a non extreme deficit that only exceeded 25% while I was obese and that only until I learned better! After almost 2 years at a good deficit (close to 1.5lbs a week) and a year at a much slower <1lb a month I will say that the next year which was a wash weight-wise was probably when I experienced a serious reduction to my "wanting to seek all da foodz" behavior and where my "binge" incidents became limited only to situations where lack of sleep or other stresses are involved.
So all I can suggest is time at maintenance or a bit above.
And I am not 100% convinced unless you're very un-tall and very light and very inactive that 1900 is maintenance for a person who is on their feet all day long and moving heavy objects
So you may want to examine that with a view of looking at an average activity factor closer to 2, same as the OP doesn't sound like an activity factor of <1.65 based on their 3 hours of activity a day.
My personal read on adaptive thermogenesis and hormonal tanking in response to under-eating was that it was a thing to avoid as there didn't seem to be complete agreement into how fast and how completely it resolves. I attempted to do that by using modest deficits but did not take advantage of more formal re-feeds and diet breaks, though I "naturally" did have several of both (just not *optimal* ones ) My personal estimation is that I did exhibit reduced NEAT (feeling cold etc) at the end of my weight loss phase and this HAS resolved with time and eating at TRUE maintenance.
"True" maintenance in this case being the calories such that I'm not actually gaining via weight trend VS the calories such that I'm not actually losing. There is a 100 to 150 Cal "elasticity", at least for me, between the two>
Not sure if any of this helps anyone... and sorry for the length <did I say that?!>!
But there you go :-)
The https://community.myfitnesspal.com/en/discussion/10300319/most-helpful-posts-general-health-fitness-and-diet-must-reads#latest threads really do contain a lot of information (and take a long time to even skim read!) Usually the first few posts contain the bulk of information3 -
Tolstolobik wrote: »Tolstolobik wrote: »In your experience, how long does it take for the hormones to regulate again?
Well, I'm not @dmt4641 and I would love to hear her answer; but, as far as I know the answer of how long depends on the individual and their individual circumstances and there doesn't exist a universal answer.
It can range from almost complete recovery of hormonal levels after a few days of eating at maintenance to... well... an extremely long time! With the vast majority of people somewhere in between!!!
Maybe a new post with details of particular circumstances might help?
Thank you PAV for your reply. It's been about three months since I've entered maintenance. BMI maintenance range 19.3-20. I lost 50+ lbs. slowly over the course of 4+ years using several unsustainable methods. Only the last couple of lbs. we're lost by counting calories. I haven't figured out what my TDEE is. I thought my Fitbit would help but hasn't. I spend a good part of my day on my feet working with my hands, lifting things, putting things away. A lot of my activity is not step based. I recently discovered METs (Metabolic Equivalent of Task). I am trying it out to see if it would be somewhat a better estimator. Have you had any experience with METs?
In terms of hunger. I've been averaging ~1900 calories over the course of this time. There are many days when I feel insatiable no matter what macros/high satiety foods I've experimented with.
My gut feeling is that I have to be patient and wait longer for hormones to normalize(a good part of my weighloss was done by cycles of heavy restriction alternated with overeating). Thankful that I finally came to the truth of CICO! So thankful to this community. You, among several others, have been extremely helpful in solidifying this truth.
Hmmm.... I was talking about starting a new thread; but I misspoke and said post See how easy it is to say/imply the wrong thing in a moment of inattention? A new thread might get more answers for you from others!
A quick note because I saw somewhere above about a 1 day re-feed. Optimal re-feeds seem to be 48 hours prioritizing carbs and diet breaks at least 14 days. Both at maintenance calories. See "on re-feeds and diet breaks" thread.
Please note that unlike other people who do post on these boards who may happen to be physicians, or nurses, or dietitians, or PT's, or knowledgeable nutritionists, I am just a person who discovered MFP just about 5 years ago, and read the FAQ's and absorbed some knowledge that made sense from the boards, cross verified it with studies I could find online (and which I am barely able to validate as to whether they are of good quality or not), filtered it through my own biases and observations, and half-haphazardly satisfied my own curiosity about subjects that interest me! Because I found the boards very helpful when I "discovered" the "secret" of CICO I got involved with the community forums. But please don't expect gold in extremely complex situations!
METs are used by MFP and by Fitbit and by a lot of other devices in order to estimate calories spent. All the devices do is translate what they're able to detect into a MET value for a certain amount of time and use that as their basis of calculating the calories spent. Of course if they fail to detect the movement in the first place... well then, they don't assign a value!
But both Fitbit and MFP appear to use the Mifflin formula for BMR and then use an Activity Factor to multiply it by and arrive at estimated calories out. On MFP this is derived from a selection of 4 values (sedentary, lightly active, etc) and on Fitbit it is derived using the detected movement, which is translated into a single MET value per 5 minute increment, and then the calories out are estimated by aggregating the 5 minute increments over the 1440 minutes of the day.
In my personal experience Fitbit seems to under-estimate a little bit static/non sensing and over-estimate sensed movement. And I suspect they justify that as encouraging people to move more. Of course this is an n=1 observation. And an n=1 which is pretty well captured by Fitbit at that with a less than 5% TDEE over-estimate over several years.
The truth is that our own logging of food intake and our own body's deviation from the mean influence just as much as anything the *apparent* accuracy of whichever device we're using!!!
In the end the only thing that counts is what our weight does over time (see weight trend apps and web sites)
And, as many people have found out, even the weight trend STILL doesn't tell us anything about body weight composition and long term water retention!
And yes, long term water retention can happen. Ask me how I know about weeping edema and apparent weight given that my mom passed away after months of being unable to eat properly due to cancer. But extreme water weight issues are not only due to a terminal conditions! Extreme stress, long term undernourishment, extreme exercise, etc can all affect things.
I don't have a full answer for you and I don't know that I have a suggestion other than to be patient and fight the good fight!
@psychod787 's answer has been a slow and deliberate bulk and accepting some weight regain till he can get his body to a more long term sustainable state. Whether it is the increase in weight (and fat level) or that a long enough time has passed, he is starting to feel better and less famished and has accomplished that with a relative modest regain.
The Minnesota participants resolved with time and varying levels of regain. The deficit that was used was 50% <-- how many people on MFP apply 50% of TDEE deficits? Apparently quite a few! The differentiating factor there is that they pushed the participants to very low weight and fat conditions through a combination of diet and exercise. The men WERE eating 1500 calories, right? How much does that have implications for MFPers at a sub 20 BMI? Especially if we accept that women require slightly more fat for a healthy hormonal balance.
Minnesota strongly suggested that apparent ED symptoms resolve with re-feeding. As in physical re-nurishment may play a significant role in resolving ED ideation. From what I understand most protocols that deal with people who have an ED suggest a re-feed phase to at least a BMI of 20 in part because of that reason.
I can personally contribute only a little bit of hope given that I took care to lose at a non extreme deficit that only exceeded 25% while I was obese and that only until I learned better! After almost 2 years at a good deficit (close to 1.5lbs a week) and a year at a much slower <1lb a month I will say that the next year which was a wash weight-wise was probably when I experienced a serious reduction to my "wanting to seek all da foodz" behavior and where my "binge" incidents became limited only to situations where lack of sleep or other stresses are involved.
So all I can suggest is time at maintenance or a bit above.
And I am not 100% convinced unless you're very un-tall and very light and very inactive that 1900 is maintenance for a person who is on their feet all day long and moving heavy objects
So you may want to examine that with a view of looking at an average activity factor closer to 2, same as the OP doesn't sound like an activity factor of <1.65 based on their 3 hours of activity a day.
My personal read on adaptive thermogenesis and hormonal tanking in response to under-eating was that it was a thing to avoid as there didn't seem to be complete agreement into how fast and how completely it resolves. I attempted to do that by using modest deficits but did not take advantage of more formal re-feeds and diet breaks, though I "naturally" did have several of both (just not *optimal* ones ) My personal estimation is that I did exhibit reduced NEAT (feeling cold etc) at the end of my weight loss phase and this HAS resolved with time and eating at TRUE maintenance.
"True" maintenance in this case being the calories such that I'm not actually gaining via weight trend VS the calories such that I'm not actually losing. There is a 100 to 150 Cal "elasticity", at least for me, between the two>
Not sure if any of this helps anyone... and sorry for the length <did I say that?!>!
But there you go :-)
The https://community.myfitnesspal.com/en/discussion/10300319/most-helpful-posts-general-health-fitness-and-diet-must-reads#latest threads really do contain a lot of information (and take a long time to even skim read!) Usually the first few posts contain the bulk of information
Wow! I am speechless! 👏Thank you so much for taking the time to respond to my post! Definitely will be processing what you wrote! Blessings to you fellow pilgrim!
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I truly appreciate all who have contributed so far. Thank you greatly again. I would prefer to respond to everyone in a bulk message simply because I have to prepare to travel and I don't have much time but I want to make sure I reply before I go because you have all been so helpful.
To anyone who suggested I seek professional help, you're right, I should. I'm not denying that I have a vast amount of issues that need to be worked out. Trust me, I know the level of crazy I am. I'm obsessive, perfectionistic, and at times an all or nothing thinker (while somehow trying to embrace the grey) with a proclivity towards addiction though food was the drug of choice here, and the tendency to challenge myself simply because I find it fun, apparently in a masochistic way. I will be seeking professional help again (because I have in the past many times for other reasons) when I have the means.
Beyond this, it is clear that I need to increase my caloric intake. I will be decreasing my activity level slightly because my circumstances are changing, and so will factor that in. Since I'm going on vacation this week, I am planning on relaxing my restriction of food. I will still exercise as usual, but allow myself to eat in a more casual way so that I can reach maintenance calories. I have to remain aware that I will likely gain more water weight in the process, and I have to be ok with this because like so many have said, it's temporary and necessary for this recovery.
The water retention I have been experiencing lately is just messing with me. I know that I haven't actually gained true weight, I mean, you can see what my CICO has been (if you want to of course). The water isn't being released though, it just keeps coming on and I'm not looking forward to holding onto more when I increase my calories. However, I know what needs to be done because my body is basically throwing signs at me that a change needs to happen now and am keeping in my mind that the water will eventually diminish and there is a future where I am less squishy and lean again.
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I have nothing to add really, but I did want to say that I'm glad you realize that you need to see a therapist again and are going to try to go about doing so when you're back in your home country. So many people are put off by the idea of doing so (oh the joys of stigma) or just don't think they need to, so it's hopeful when someone is more or less saying, "yes this is on my to do list".2
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