I feel like giving up tonight

I gained 10# in the past 6 months and am starting to lose it finally. It’s very frustrating to gain and lose over and over. I used to do it with 20 pounds and now I manage to put the breaks on at ten pounds gained because it’s a real pia to have to lose more. My goal is to have a 5 pound swing.

My advice is to put the breaks on now before it gets worse. And it will. Start counting your calories again. That’s what I start with. If I go over I record it and try to do better the next day (not the next week). You can do this- just start again and do it

That video proves what people can do when they've put their mind to it. I feel our brains are the most important muscle to use to get us where we want to go.
Before you work on your eating/body, maybe you need to work on the issues that are facing your outlook. mindset, and your life right now? Make one change that you can live with, at a time. Looking back, if I had listened to all that wisdom that simply sounded like blahclicheblahclicheblah back then, I wouldn't have lost/gained the same 50-100 lbs. over and over.
While losing weight can be extremely difficult, there are ways to make it easier and at times, even enjoyable. Find ways to incorporate good tasting food and fun activities into your routine without thinking of them as diet, tolerable, hard, painful, discouraging, etc. There are fun activities to do that keep you active. There are really yummy foods that are healthier to fulfill your needs.
Above all, do NOT keep giving up because it keeps you stuck where you are. Feeling defeated and not capable. You ARE capable; you just haven't found the right combination of food/movement/mindset to keep you there. Everyone has off days but when they aren't the norm anymore, that's when you know you've found success!! Wishing you much luck and determination!!!

Yuck. You're kind of a wreck right now, huh? Lots of people here can relate. At some point, it all seems overwhelming and too much work. But maybe there is one small thing you can change for the better. One thing that you can commit to each day. Sometimes we want results so bad that we try to change everything all at once, and realistically, it just isn't a reasonable way to go about it. You got lots of good ideas here. Come back for more. I have found reading the Success Stories to be inspiring. I also decided that I wasn't going to weigh myself until I could tell that there was a big enough difference from my starting weight. I started logging food in March and weighed myself in August. When I did, 22 pounds was gone. What the heck. It was my "last ditch effort" to lose weight. EVERY OTHER TIME, I had resigned myself to being at my "set weight," most likely because it removed my accountability in the problem. I had no idea that I was actually able to lose the weight. I also realized that I don't have to lose it quickly, I just have to keep losing. You have lots of time, so do it the way that works for you.