It's official ... I'm a junkie

I am going to weigh in here one last time. Probably! I know, that was a terrible pun, but I couldn't resist. :happy:

mgullette, I am always in awe of your posts! One, you are very knowledgable, and two, you are WAY committed to building a healthy body and you've reached a place where watching your calories and doing a few sit-ups just doesn't cut it! :noway: So, you have taken it up a notch, (or two or three) and I have tremendous respect for you! Some day, i hope to be in the kind of shape that I can come to you and ask in a humble way, :blushing: "What is P90X? I think I am ready for it!" :bigsmile: But today is not that day. :ohwell: But it will happen!

So, DIego, in a way, this applies to you, too, though I am not sure your methods will ever by my methods. But, you are clearly a guy who is going beyond decent health and reaching for something greater, and you are also a mind, body, spirit kind of person, which I do admire. Having said that, I would like to point out that some of us are at a point in our journey where we are just trying to get a handle on our addiction. If this were AA, we are doing our 90 meetings in 90 days. For us, the thought of 3 days on and 1 day off is frankly terrifying! Here in the beginning of our quest, we need structure and support. One day off can so easily turn into a week, or a month, or a year. Really! :noway:

In 1982, when I was 23, I had just got home from spending about 18 months in Italy, where I ate a healthy Med. diet and I walked almost everywhere I went. I lost 70 pounds and was within about 5 or 10 pounds of my goal. I didn't realize how important those two factors were, healthy diet and all that walking, and when I got home, I had a car again, and started eating the unhealthy way I had been before, thinking I could just "watch my weight". Well, Here I am, 27 years later, and I have yo-yo dieted and watched my weight go up about 260 lbs. That's not up to 260, thats how much I gained. :grumble: :mad: ---

This brings me back to YOU, Yankie GIrl, this is your thread. If its addiction you are battling, build yourself a solid structure of caring, knowledgable people around you for support. Enllist your husband to help you when you feel weak. So often, those that love us just don't know what to say. They have tried in the past and gotten our wrath, so they walk on egg shells today, and their hearts are breaking because they don't know how to help. We have to show them. We do it by humbling ourselves. You also have to identify, and then avoid the things that tempt you when you are weak. If you do crack, and you have 40 days of sobriety, the last thing you should do is walk through the park where you used to score. We are the same way, RUN from the buffet for a while. Maybe the day will come. Figure out all your triggers, and then develop a plan to avoid them. YOU CAN DO THIS! :bigsmile: :drinker:

Ok, so today, I am 50, and I have a goal to lose 266 lbs. I have been working on it, and living a new life since February 17. I've lost 15 lbs. Its a journey, not a destination, and I am doing it right this time. Thanks for listening everyone, and YG, You Go Girl! :flowerforyou: