Motivation before and during photos

Wifeband0311
Wifeband0311 Posts: 24 Member
in Motivation and Support
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Here's my newest--always recommiting after failure--photo.

Im too scared to step on the scale but it was 185 last time I did. Im short so it has nowhere to hide. Makin this a thread to post consistent photos and hopefully see some progress. I was 114-123 lbs before. Here we go!

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  • Wifeband0311
    Wifeband0311 Posts: 24 Member
    Please join me and my photos!
  • harper16
    harper16 Posts: 2,564 Member
    Wifeband0311 wrote: »
    Thousand extra calories today. Settings for 1 lb a week so 1400 cal a day. Celebrated a new job. I keep thinking its just one day but enough days like today is what made me gain 65 lbs. New day tomorrow. Work out tomorrow. Think healthy think positive

    Congrats on the job, and lots of good luck on your weight loss journey.
  • Wifeband0311
    Wifeband0311 Posts: 24 Member
    edited July 2020
    500 extra calories yesterday as opposed to 1000. Each thing I ate I thought about and wrote down what time I ate what food. I even brushed my teeth and put in my retainer. My friend puts in crest white strips so she really can't remove them. Today I'm on my second drink and shooting to stay within the 1400. Looking for the magic balance between drinking and losing weight. It's been a long gain.
  • Wifeband0311
    Wifeband0311 Posts: 24 Member
    edited July 2020
    Only 200 calories over yesterday. "Only x calories over." Always a combination of glad I didn't overeat more and disappointed that I overate at all. New day.

    On a positive note, I exercised. Tabata in the morning and quick walk around the park in the afternoon. So maybe I did ok.
  • wanttobeafittermom
    wanttobeafittermom Posts: 6 Member
    Before 😖 (now)

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  • MaltedTea
    MaltedTea Posts: 6,286 Member
    I can see a difference already! Love the fact that the most recent pic includes your smartwatch too.
  • Wifeband0311
    Wifeband0311 Posts: 24 Member
    edited July 2020
    800 cal of drunk snacks. Didnt look at my photo. Couldnt stop to think because all i could think about was pain. Hard not to feel discouraged. New day tmrw
  • Wifeband0311
    Wifeband0311 Posts: 24 Member
    Just did my first day of insanity with shaun t. Ive done it before with great results. Even if i cant do all the moves for all the timed minutes if I just stick with workout and dont drunk eat I know results are possible
  • Dobbythefreelef
    Dobbythefreelef Posts: 33 Member
    Keep going! 200 calories over is better than a 1000! Dont let bad days cloud the improvement!
  • Pool_Boy
    Pool_Boy Posts: 405 Member
    Wifeband0311 wrote: »
    I wanted to coast today and convinced myself not to work out since I did yesterday but it's a trap. I had alcohol yesterday but I didn't drunk eat. Luckily there was a bunch of watermelon to grab my attention and I joyfully ate it instead of raiding the fridge. It's always an immense relief the next morning when I haven't but in a back of my mind kind of way. I almost feel like I should be proud of myself but it's such a "normal" thing to not overeat that I feel like I'm reaching the least I should be doing and not reaching a highlight.

    Waiting for my sandwich to digest a little more and then hitting the workout video.

    My brother stupidly told our mom that I was feeling down and she knows I'm feeling down but she's more afraid that I'll never lose weight. She doesn't yell or anything but she talks to my dad about how they need to force me to exercise where I can hear. She'll stop talking about my weight as I enter the room and once I turn around and go back up the stairs she starts talking about it again in a defeated quiet voice. She's not trying to start a fight but is sad at my weight. It crushes me. When I hear her talk like that I want to gain even more weight and become 200 or 300 pounds just to "teach her a lesson" of how she makes me feel when she talks about me like a lost cause. When she does it to my brother he gets pissed and it actually makes him lose weight. I'm not motivated by spite and I never will be. I just want to give up. I wish she wouldnt talk about me like that but you know how moms will be moms and they cant stop themselves from saying things that they believe even if their kids dont like it.

    Such unhealthy thinking.

    I'm going to exercise after writing this but I do it with a heavy heart, not a feeling of joy or the desire to improve myself. I just want my mom to stop looking at the floor and sighing like that. I want her to stop.

    You can do this!!!!! I have faith in you!! Keep going toward your goal!!! You can add me if you want.
  • Wifeband0311
    Wifeband0311 Posts: 24 Member
    Doing good since beginning of this week. Did insanity. Didnt snack. Not had a drink yet. Im trying out this new thing where I can drink but not before 8pm. Do like a nightcap thing. Even if i want to have more than a few I will be too tired to really drink all that much more. I also take my medicine at 830pm and theres not really a reaction but it makes me feel guilty to drink and take medicine. Of course some days I just take my medicine later lol. Its always so surprising when I get so hungry on days and times I dont drink when I usually do. "Where my extra 500 cal at" lol
  • Wifeband0311
    Wifeband0311 Posts: 24 Member
    Had as much pasta as I wanted but within limits. It was maybe 4 oz dry or somewhere around 500 cal. It blows my mind how much I can afford to eat without feeling restricted when I don't drink starting at 3pm or 5pm or before dinner. Like seriously. This 8pm thing is grounding me since I would usually drink more in early evening to get drunk, delaying my dinner time sometimes three hours then eating after all the alcohol, and then drunk eating until I went to bed.

    Didnt workout to the max of just before asthma attack but I still drip sweat. I got a pedometer and I'm really excited. I hate how expensive and creepy smart watches are and I strictly wanted a calorie burning counter, heart rate, and no smart interface. My close friend has also decided to do insanity with me so I'm really excited about not doing something alone. My husband has some real body shame and doesn't want to have me witness it. To be honest I understand because I wouldnt be able to focus as hard as I do if he were with me because Id be thinking about him. Wanted to make mimosas for my treat tonight but you cant really rebottle mimosas. Maybe I'll get a couple of those little prosecco bottles.
  • Wifeband0311
    Wifeband0311 Posts: 24 Member
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    I went for a lovely walk at the lake with my husband. We hadn't gone back and were going to a smaller park because the parking lots were locked up for quarantine. I decided to take a day off insanity and that it was ok bc I did other exercise and eating in calories. I noticed a while back that I had neck wrinkles and my stretchmarks have increased like the tops of my shoulders, under my knees, and spanning all the way from elbow to boob.

    This is the longest I've gone with this little alcohol in a long time and my stomach is really uncomfortable. I constantly feel like I haven't eaten enough because suddenly I'm not ingesting so many calories. I can't even really enjoy a drink right now even though I'd like to sip one while knitting because it feels like a cross of having to poop and not having enough in your stomach for too long.

    Maybe its the heat. I know some of it is my period. Since getting an iud the nausea is different, like stop you in your tracks hard, but I only can put my finger on it here and there.
  • Wifeband0311
    Wifeband0311 Posts: 24 Member
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  • Wifeband0311
    Wifeband0311 Posts: 24 Member
    I'm primarily losing weight for me but when I hear her talk like that it totally distracts me from the real reason and I just respond really poorly to someone I love saying they don't believe that I can do it, you know?
    I want to fit my clothes. I want to do everything I can not to get diabetes and heart disease. I want walking up the stairs to not wind me. I'm also tired of not fitting in tight places and like when I do elbow planks my stomach touches the floor you know. Theres also a vain part of me that is freaking out quietly about neck wrinkles haha. My husband also wants to lose some weight and I'm trying to encourage him like "if i can do it you can do it, too! :smile: "

    I think I am just a regular person who reeeeeally enjoys alcohol. I think if I were addicted I wouldnt be able to wait til 8pm and have maybe one drink some days and none more than half the time. What I really enjoy is pouring a drink and like thinking I can feel good but a lot of the time the actual pouring gives me the feel good and I save it for the next day. I don't notice if I have any withdrawal symptoms besides being hungry all the time. But what do I know I havent talked to a specialist haha.

    Thank you for asking me detailed questions :)
  • Wifeband0311
    Wifeband0311 Posts: 24 Member
    I didn't work out yesterday. My husband didn't want to squeeze in going to the park and I chose not to exercise anyway before I went to the doctor to get a biopsy and a few stitches. It's only 3 but it's the first time I've ever had stitches before and I kept rubbing/pulling it in my sleep.

    Yesterday I chose for my treat a chocopie and one mini kitkat. It was very satisfying. I love to eat them frozen.

    I know I could exercise today but I'm falling into the trap of "oh you did good now splurge"
  • Wifeband0311
    Wifeband0311 Posts: 24 Member
    I weighed myself after breakfast and I got like 188 lbs. Shouldnt have been a shock but it was. I ate 1700 cal yesterday and exercised 200 cal so I was over not by much but I didn't take more advantage of exercise. My husbands pants were loose so his thighs were rubbing. We talked about him sitting down and me walking more without him but it's so hot out I didm't wanna. I also don't feel super bad about yesterday because what put me over was avocado and I even skipped sour cream but of course the numbers make me feel a little guilty. I feel stuck and it's only been a couple days since I got the fitbit.

    I would rather do an insanity workout but I dont want to pull these dang stitches which I did throughout the night and kept jerking me awake.

    My husband told me every time I try to lose weight I get bigger and bigger and I can't let that keep happening. I keep saying I will do this and try not to stress.

    I took those first photos Jul 15th. Maybe I will take photos every two weeks. ♡
  • Wifeband0311
    Wifeband0311 Posts: 24 Member
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  • Wifeband0311
    Wifeband0311 Posts: 24 Member
    Data:
    Neck:18.5.
    Waist: skinniest part of waist is 39.5 My widest part of waist is 44
    Hip: 44.5

    Analysis:
    Neck: 13 inches or less is recommended in women neck size.
    Waist/Hip: Less than half my height means waist should be 32.5 inches or less.
    WTH ratio of skinniest waist area is .89 which scores high risk. .80 or lower is low health risk.
  • Wifeband0311
    Wifeband0311 Posts: 24 Member
    Holy crap. I really like hiit calisthenics because I just feel like I get so much more out of the full body than one motion hiit running. When I do the insanity workout my heart rate cycles usually from 87/90 to 140ish. I haven't gotten a chance to do one with the fitbit yet since my stitches but they come out on friday.
    But I did a neila rey/darebee I have the 21 days of hiit printed out from and in 18 minutes, starting to smell, my fitbit said I only burned 47 calories. My heart rate only cycles from 87/90 to 110/124.
    I really hope I havent been vastly overestimating the calories in my insanity workouts but this is why I bought a tracker. I wanted to get a better picture of what I was actually burning than the myfitnesspal templates.
    Excited to have this real time calorie burning estimate.
  • Wifeband0311
    Wifeband0311 Posts: 24 Member
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    You can see how I ran out of energy but still tried at the end haha
  • Wifeband0311
    Wifeband0311 Posts: 24 Member
    edited August 2020
    Got the chance to see my live calorie burn estimate with my fitbit during an insanity workout. 8.4 cal/min. Basically 500 cal an hour workout with my snails pace but best effort. I heard you can easily burn 1000 calories a video depending on your personal fitness level and I could definitely see someone super fit doing that.

    For whatever reason it was hard and I could only do 24 minutes today. Usually i modify high knees and crunches between actual moves I can manage and spend the whole time moving in front of the video but maybe actually being able to check my heart rate with a device motivated me to go harder. Glad I did it. I was tempted not to but it was barely past noon and what was I going to do. Gotta eat something when my stomach settles.
  • Wifeband0311
    Wifeband0311 Posts: 24 Member
    Lost 1 lb in a week. I'm 183.8 now. In Jan I was like 177 so that's how much I've gained since the year started. I wake up and think "i want to lose weight" but it's hard during the day esp at night. I felt discouraged because I thought "I lost weight!" but then I still have gained overall. Hopefully the progress continues, especially with my fitbit calculating live burn and not the number of exercised calories in a session. Sticking with not drinking if I'm full is helping a lot. It's scary how sometimes I lose myself in the desire for more food or drink or whatever and can't think in the moment of why every choice matters. Because every choice matters. Patterns are what matters. It can be my time to shine and change my patterns. I need to stop gaining weight.
  • AliciaHollywood
    AliciaHollywood Posts: 102 Member
    Hi, I just rejoined here and am checking out the app again. I went to school to be a Certified Hypnotherapist. I only practiced for a year or so before moving on to other things but I learned a lot. It sounds like your conscious mind and subconscious mind are at odds. The only way you can become successful is if you get your subconscious mind to agree with your conscious mind’s wishes. There are MANY methods of hypnotherapy for weight loss. One is aversion therapy that makes you disgusted with your favorite fattening foods but I don’t like that because I believe one should always be able to enjoy favorite foods in small amounts. Depriving someone permanently of chocolate is criminal! There are many hypnosis albums you can get on Amazon or Apple Music, even apps you can download or you can try an experiment that I use that works for me. I’m curious if it works for others.

    Try this if you want. Find a time when you can be alone and lie down or sit comfortably with headphones and listen to nature sounds of the ocean. Naturespace is an app you can try that has free tracks and is very surround sound. But ocean sounds are easy to find anywhere. Close your eyes, relax. Imagine you are on a beautiful tropical beach. Feel the sand under your feet, watch the waves, birds, some palm trees, feel a breeze on your face, smell the slight smell of salt in the air. REALLY be there. Now see a woman approaching you. She is fit and beautiful and you wish you could look like that. As she approaches closer, you realize it IS you! You walk up to her then merge with her. You are now your future self with your ideal body. Notice your flat stomach, your toned arms and legs. Imagine some guys walking by and admiring you. Imagine feeling so confident in your bikini. You are so proud of your body and love that feeling of freedom that you can play in the water, have so much fun and not feel self-conscious at all. Really feel the emotions of how great that would feel. You can go on fantasizing about other things you’d do or people you’d like to be around maybe even an encounter with a celebrity crush! Have fun with it! Just really get into the fantasy of it. Whenever I’ve done this it really kickstarts my diet and I lose all interest in food except as healthy fuel for the body. It’s a form of self hypnosis where you train your subconscious mind to desire the same thing you consciously want. If you do this often enough, maybe every night before sleep or when you just wake up in the morning (when your brain is the most suggestive and in an Alpha brainwave state) you should see results! If you do it and it works, please let me know! :smiley:
  • Wifeband0311
    Wifeband0311 Posts: 24 Member
    I stayed within calories yesterday but I feel guilty and somewhat ashamed because a binge is a binge. Trying not to feel down and also not motivated to exercise but hey, I always think "45 minutes is going to pass a ton of times today. maybe one of them can be exercise because look at all the time that i have to be lazy." I start a new job next week. My commute is 40 min so that's extra time that I won't eat when I shouldn't. Only pack the right amount of food and not have a store to drive to to get more food since I'll be commuting by train. It will be good to have a schedule again. And I will physically be forced not to start scrounging for food and drinks starting at like 1-3pm. I hope this job goes so well as that I get contract to hire after the months are up. Trying to stay motivated, think positive, feel good about myself and how happy my life is overall. Food, family, friends. Reconnected with an old friend yesterday. We're going to go out for sushi in a couple weeks. I'm somewhat nervous about going to a restaurant in covid but we don't have anywhere else to go. Maybe my parents will go out of town and I can just have her come to my house. Hmm....

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