Regaining weight, struggling to motivate for round 2.

MadisonMolly2017 · September 2020

I read in a scientific research paper recently that obesity is a “chronic relapsing disease.”

Every time I regained my weight, I stopped weighing myself & went into an “amnesia”
State & got really busy with school, motherhood, and/or work, often completely unaware I was gaining it all back. Really.

I read in a book there is a big difference between a FOTP (formerly overweight/obese thin person) & a NOTP (never overweight/obese thin person).

I took stock of how I saw my two obese parents eating. How my dad decided to do an experiment with us and filled a HUGE box with individually wrapped candies... His theory was we’d get tired of it (although he was over 300lbs & he never got tired of quarts of ice cream late at night as he “zoned out.” My mom eating Chunks of butter, cheese, peanut butter as she cooked & then eating “rabbit food” at the table.

And I love them both dearly.

This is a disease.

It can be managed through vigilance, through honesty with ourselves, with supportive people in our lives, cumulative baby habIt changes, humility, courage, and development of other non-food activities that lift our spirits.

I will always remember I’m not a NOTP. I will never take my Maintenance for granted.

My motivations:
1. Someone gave me her kidney & I promised myself I’d take at least as goos a cate of it as she did.
2. In the later stages of CKD, my kidneys only cleaned 9% of toxins from blood. I had leg cramps (one snapped a tendon) every night, I could only walk 1/2 mile before having to rest, I missed out on active fun things with family/friends.
i decided this was my 2nd Chance. I want to be as fit as possible so I can Actively enjoy like with my husband &son. I know the alternative.
3. After transplant, I got labs very often as they adjusted meds.
WOW!!! I could see what I ate directly effected the lab values. Of course! We eat food, our body breaks it down, blood stream takes it around. Labs are a blood draw. Something CLICKED. It all made sense.
Eating isn’t about what tastes good or cravings... it’s Just Food (as someone else mentioned.) it’s not Love, it’s not Comfort (the next time I step on the scale), it’s not Solace, it doesn’t solve problems...

It’s JUST FOOD helps me lessen its hold over me.

I have found 2 groups Very helpful in MFP:

The Ultimate Accountability Challenge

Building Habits Group

MadisonMolly2017 · September 2020

Can’t edit - got one of group names wrong...

But here’s a photo with the names of the two groups that are awesome, in case you want to search in Groups & check them out!

Daisy_Girl2019 · October 2020

I am on round 2 also. Added you. 🤗 I hope you will accept.

ggeise14 · October 2020

Mid-50's here and wanted to chime in. 10 yrs ago, cut carbs, started daily exercise, which I have kept up, lost 30 lbs. Hit my goal for one weigh in here on MFP. Have spent the last years regaining, losing 5-8 lbs, yo-yoing. Found Dr. Becky Fitness info online in Feb. Signed up and then Covid. Another excuse! My husband and I finally started the program in June. Something finally clicked for both of us. He has lost 32 lbs, has less back pain and less snoring. I've lost 20 lbs and set my end goal for another 5.

I've gotten back into logging all my food here, even the "adult beverages". We're all different and there isn't just one answer but MFP is a great gathering spot for info and discussion.

CorvusCorax77 · November 2020

Daisy_Girl2019 wrote: »

I am on round 2 also. Added you. 🤗 I hope you will accept.

Of course!

jenilla1 · November 2020

Don't let age hold you back. I'm older than you (late 40's) and haven't had any age-related challenges to maintaining my weight...so far. I've been at maintenance for about a decade, since my 30's, so I'm well-practiced. I'm actually loving my 40's. I'm experiencing some peri-menopausal symptoms, but weight gain hasn't been one of them, probably because I'm fairly accurate with my logging after all these years. As long as I stick to my calorie goals, and maintain my fitness, it just keeps working exactly like always. But it does take long-term (permanent) perseverance. Good thing I'm a creature of habit - that makes this easy. But...I'm fairly certain that if I didn't pay attention, I would have gained by now!

Age may make it harder for some people, partly due to hormone changes that may impact appetite, etc., and partly due to loss of muscle mass (which leads to metabolism changes) over time if you aren't actively working to build or maintain it, but not impossible. You might have to work harder than your 30-something self. That sucks, but we gotta do what we gotta do. I haven't gotten to the point that I'm working harder yet, but that time may or may not come when I hit my 50's. I guess it depends on the person?

I suspect your PCOS is what's causing you the most problems. That's not impossible to overcome, but it's definitely an extra challenge that needs to be acknowledged. It's not fair, but you might have to work harder than others to get the same results. But don't give up. You can do this. You're already a proven success story - go get it again!

P.S. This too: "...but there's also looking in the mirror and seeing a chubby me as beautiful..." Perfection is overrated. There's an excellent chance that "chubby" you IS beautiful, and you're just being way too hard on yourself. Let's just strive for the happiest, healthiest version of ourselves!

CorvusCorax77 · November 2020

jenilla1 wrote: »

P.S. This too: "...but there's also looking in the mirror and seeing a chubby me as beautiful..." Perfection is overrated. There's an excellent chance that "chubby" you IS beautiful, and you're just being way too hard on yourself. Let's just strive for the happiest, healthiest version of ourselves!

Thank you for your response. I do actually feel beautiful at my current size. Just a little extra padding in the middle area

It's been a while since I started this thread and there was a development... It turned out I had constant sinus infections, which I interpreted as "fatigue" and "migraines." They didn't respond to antibiotics at all, and when COVID hit, I started to make my doctors test me because the sinus infections also caused low grade fevers (which I didn't notice before COVID because I interpreted it, again, as "fatigue" or "migraines" but when COVID hit, I became aware my temp was going up). Anyway, harassing my doctors about it finally led to some answers. So I finally had surgery to address that about a month ago and I can already tell my energy is better!

jenilla1 · November 2020

CorvusCorax77 wrote: »

jenilla1 wrote: »

P.S. This too: "...but there's also looking in the mirror and seeing a chubby me as beautiful..." Perfection is overrated. There's an excellent chance that "chubby" you IS beautiful, and you're just being way too hard on yourself. Let's just strive for the happiest, healthiest version of ourselves!

Thank you for your response. I do actually feel beautiful at my current size. Just a little extra padding in the middle area

It's been a while since I started this thread and there was a development... It turned out I had constant sinus infections, which I interpreted as "fatigue" and "migraines." They didn't respond to antibiotics at all, and when COVID hit, I started to make my doctors test me because the sinus infections also caused low grade fevers (which I didn't notice before COVID because I interpreted it, again, as "fatigue" or "migraines" but when COVID hit, I became aware my temp was going up). Anyway, harassing my doctors about it finally led to some answers. So I finally had surgery to address that about a month ago and I can already tell my energy is better!

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Regaining weight, struggling to motivate for round 2.

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