I have been here too many times!

I feel I have been here 100 times. Constantly starting and doing well for a tiny bit then falling back off and feeling sorry for myself and hating how I look and feel. I got lucky almost 2yrs ago now and lost about 30lbs during and after my pregnancy, then like always put most of it back on. Then recently back in July when 3 of my 5 kids were visiting their Nana in Mexico for almost 2 months my husband and I started walking about 2miles every day after work and I loved it lost about 12lbs combined with eating better. Once the kids got back and the chaos started again and the weather getting colder and it getting darker earlier I stopped walking. I have now put back on about 5lbs and now just focus on work and coming home and cleaning up the house after the kids have been home all day for distance learning and the hubby working from home and making sure dinner gets done and then getting all the kids in bed I have no time for myself. At this point I am sure I just need to get off my butt and do my workouts at home so I can get some cardio in but I find it so hard to find time with everything going on. I constantly am putting myself last and just focusing on making sure everything gets done with the house and the kids. I know I have posted something similar to this before but I just can’t seem to get out of this rut no matter what I do.