Is this all there is?

I guess it comes down to deciding if you really want to change your life and make it different. If you do, then you have to make some effort--be patient and consistent. Good luck.

Please seek professional help, hun. You need more specialized help than a weight-loss support community is in any way qualified to provide.

snowflake954 wrote: »

I think you should contact your treatment team and work from there.

this is excellent advice

I can tell you personally what you think others are thinking of you is not accurate. Most people aren’t even thinking of you or your appearance that’s most likely your own self talk. I’d work on getting into therapy, improving your self talk to love and self acceptance. Build your confidence. Start with mini goals as you achieve you feel better. Weight loss is hard but it is a huge mind game! Your mind doesn’t want you to change it will try to trick you make you think you can’t do it like when you go to excercise it will tell you I don’t want to today, or many excuses same with diet. It is better not to beat up when you feel you failed, learn and start again every day. Be consistent start a routine. And know if you mess up your next choice is the choice that turns it around. It is hard to change eating habits you always had it won’t be easy. I don’t know how many times I cried bc I don’t want to count calories or weigh food or skip on a food I know I should not have eaten ( but I learn too that I can have those foods but in a small quantity). I start every day with my same meal and that sets my tone for the day. Sometimes I succeed sometimes not. But I don’t bash myself for it anymore. If I ate outside my meal plan and ate say cookies or chocolate or something I don’t throw away my day. My next choice is what I planned to eat anyway usually this takes me over my calories for the day but it’s consistent that brings me back in line. And if I really want to have a sweet I make it part of my day rather than forbid it and eat a serving rather than a whole container. I also learned to trick myself with procrastination if say after work ( I work at a grocery store) I want a chocolate bomb for the ride home snack, I tell myself I’ll get it tomorrow or I’m too tired to walk to the bakery dept. on the ride home if the urge to stop for fast food hits I tell myself I’ll get it tomorrow or I don’t have the money (or I intentionally leave money home to not spend it) I tell myself I will make something similar when I get home. Same for if I want a soda or something. This really saves me a lot of calories and money! I get home and make something yummy but healthy and I’ve stayed on track this way. Or prepping meals ahead or prelog and this helps me see it’s not how I want to spend my calories. I am very visual I love food and so if I make things look good I’ll eat it. Just bc we are dieting doesn’t have to be boring or bland. Make something you look forward to eating, then I feel good cause I stuck to my goals and it makes me happy to eat this beautiful little bowl of colorful food. It’s silly but works!