NEED TO LOSE

you have taken an important first step by admitting that you have a problem and that living a healthier lifestyle in the past hasn't worked for you in the past because you were lazy.

for your second step, I want you to fill out your MFP profile with as much brutal honesty as possible. your post on this thread is a good start, but you need more. the information you put on your profile could be what saves you from getting off track again. sure, you feel good about your decision to lose weight now...but what about when it becomes a challenge? where will you find those magic pills to help you stay on track? answer: you will go to your profile and read some brutal honesty. here are things to include:

why have you failed in the past? one answer is "being lazy"...but really think about whether there were other physical and mental impediments to having success. what special food kicked you off the track (that's something you won't want to be around this time). why weren't your motivations strong enough? were you simply interested in losing weight...or were you committed to living a healthier life. were you willing to accept that this has to be a lifestyle change and, therefore, understood it would take time to lose weight. were you prepared for a slow, but successful journey?

you then need to answer what you can do differently this time around. I'm a repeat offender and one thing I've done differently this time (in addition to changing my focus from simply losing weight to living healthier) is created a LARGE accountability circle. accountability starts with yourself...and MFP is great for that. commit to logging your food each and every day. commit to an official weekly weigh-in day, and registering your weight even if you gain weight (I gained about 4 pounds between weigh-in days from last week to this week...I wasn't happy about it...but I still recorded it, felt humbled by it, and felt empowered by it...doing so made me more accountable and put me back on the right track). also, the pals on MFP are nice and helpful....but how about some real accountability. my accountability circle started with my immediate family, expanded quickly to my extended family, and then my co-workers, close friends and eventually facebook. that's a lot of people who will keep my feet to the fire. I encourage you to create an expanded accountability circle with people who know you.

write down at least 10 specific things you HATE about being overweight. be brutally honest. you're going to need to read these things when your motivation starts to falter. this is going to be part of your magic pill to help you get back on track.

enjoy the journey. I feel a ton better for being on this journey. I know I will feel even better as I continue the journey.

Good luck! I am in my second week and still trying to curb my old/bad habits. So far eating 5-6 times a day has helped! I also changed to the set up of my food diary to reflect. Instead of Break, Lunch, Dinner I have Breakfast, 1st snack, Lunch, 2nd snack, Dinner and sometimes 3rd snack. It seems to be working for me!!!!