Hello all! I'm new :)

Hello all. I'm a junior in college. I'm 5'2" and as of this morning weighed 156.6 pounds (ick). I was skinny (under 110) until my senior year of high school. I never had to watch my weight or anything. In high school I could eat whatever I wanted and never gain weight. I think that's where my junk food addiction started, and it's really hard to break because I didn't want to admit to myself that I had to curb my eating habits if I didn't want to get fat. By the end of my senior year I was about 118, but I didn't really mind, because I still looked good, my clothes still fit, etc. I got a summer job at an ice cream store (bad idea) where we could eat as much as we wanted... and I did. I was up to around 124 by the time I went to college in August. I went pretty hog wild with the food, candy, late night pizza, 4 Dr. Peppers a day, etc... I was up to 138 by the end of my freshman year. I wanted to lose weight, but I kept putting it off and being lazy. By the end of my sophomore year I was up to 150. Now I'm 156.6. I realize that I can't keep putting this off. I used to love shopping and would spend hours trying on clothes, but now I just go for clothes that minimize my pudgy love handles.

I would always be like "I'm gonna eat healthy and get in shape," but then I'd say "whatever I don't care" once it got hard to keep my motivation. But I do care. I'm self conscious and don't feel good about myself the way I used to.

I have compartment syndrome in my lower legs, which makes it very painful for me to run and sometimes even walk, so I used that as an excuse not to work out. I tried PT, that didn't work, so now I'm exploring the possibility of surgery. But I can't keep using that as an excuse to not get in shape. There's no reason why I can't eat healthy even though I can't do intense workouts.

Seeing the before and after pictures is encouraging. I just need to keep up my motivation and not give in to the late night food cravings.

I don't want to get back down to 110 or even 115. I liked how I looked at 120-130, I had some curves and wasn't so flat-chested LOL. I want to go somewhere warm on spring break next year, but I don't want to feel uncomfortable in a bathing suit.

Sorry for the long introduction, I just figured writing this all down would remind me of what I'm working for when I get discouraged.