Bitter/Sweet

Mallory0418
Mallory0418 Posts: 723 Member
edited October 4 in Success Stories
Okay this is going to be a bit of toughy...

So when I first started this journey, it was about 3 years ago and my best friend and I decided to start doing Turbo Jam videos together. We were talking about what physical attributes we really couldn't wait for when we got more fit. One thing she was really excited about was "that sexy chunk of quad at the outer-front part of a girl's leg". LOL She loved that.

I lost my best friend very suddenly 1 year and 5 months ago. She died of a heart defect even she didn't know she had. Needless to say, I fell apart and gained some weight back. Then I got angry. I'm not one to open to people. She was the person who knew me inside and out. Exercise is the only thing that kept me going for a while. People deal with their issues differently. I dealt with mine by running it out, kicking it out, punching it out...basically just sweating it out. Exercise was my therapy.

So the NSV of the day in all of this: I went to the gym today as usual and did my usual routine. I usually wear capri length yoga style pants to work out in, but today I wore shorts for some reason. I don't know, guess I was feeling brave, LOL. But I caught a look at myself in the mirror at one point and there they were, "that sexy chunk of quad". I had not noticed before because my legs are usually covered from the knee up. All I could think of was her and how sexy she would think it was. :laugh:

Anyway, sorry this got long, but it's been on my mind all day. Just wanted to share. :flowerforyou:

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  • rlv2680
    rlv2680 Posts: 289 Member
    awwww im sorry you lost your friend! it's awesome that you keep going and that your staying healthy. I think i know that part of the leg you are talking about...it does look good after working out for a while:)
  • darbym7
    darbym7 Posts: 61
    this made me tear up. im sure your friend would be so proud of you and would be jealous of your sexy chunk of quad ;) keep it up girl
  • geeksrule
    geeksrule Posts: 143 Member
    Your friend was smiling down on you today!!! You were blessed to have a friend who knew you so well. Hope your heart feels a little lighter.
  • BreakinTheChains
    BreakinTheChains Posts: 381 Member
    I'm so sorry about your friend.. Glad you had a great NSV today !!
  • wendyannie1976
    wendyannie1976 Posts: 205 Member
    what a great thing to feel good about, its the little things, parts of conversations that catch us unawares and remind ourselves of those we no longer see for whatever reason, hope you smiled a little brighter after seeing/remembering that and your friend xx
  • wildkatt7
    wildkatt7 Posts: 163 Member
    I am sorry for the loss of your friend... just remember with every punch, kick, squat, etc, she is there with you working out just like always... supporting you... and proud of you for achieving a healthy lifestyle
  • yesthistime
    yesthistime Posts: 2,051 Member
    I <3 this post. Thank you for sharing :)
  • NiciS72
    NiciS72 Posts: 1,043 Member
    That is so awesome (the sexy quad thing)! Sorry about your friend. Keep up the good work and remember she would want you to keep it up!
  • quitmakingexcuses
    quitmakingexcuses Posts: 906 Member
    So sorry on the loss of your friend. I just recently lost a good friend in a car crash, so I know the feeling. But congrats on your NSV! Keep up your great work :)
  • quitmakingexcuses
    quitmakingexcuses Posts: 906 Member
    So sorry on the loss of your friend. I just recently lost a good friend in a car crash, so I know the feeling. But congrats on your NSV! Keep up your great work :)
  • fteale
    fteale Posts: 5,310 Member
    What a sad story. I also joined here because I lost one of my best friends back in March this year to cancer. Exercise helped me get through it, I'm glad it is for you too. After Howard died I went out and just ran and ran, for hours. I damaged my ankles and had to have physio, but I needed to just get outside and exhaust myself. I felt like I couldn't breathe for crying.

    I am sorry you lost your friend.
  • skfj5
    skfj5 Posts: 70
    Bittersweet is right!! Your friend would be proud...
  • PrincessEliNa
    PrincessEliNa Posts: 524 Member
    Awww *hug*

    I know what it's like to lose a best friend, and get to the places you wanted to get to together...
    be proud of yourself. You're amazing.
  • ctalimenti
    ctalimenti Posts: 865 Member
    Ahhhh that's so cute!!!! So sorry you lost your friend. I have seen others die of heart defects at young ages and it's so sad.

    I'm glad you have that sexy chunk of quad to remember her by though. I bet she's smiling!
  • Mallory0418
    Mallory0418 Posts: 723 Member
    Thanks everyone, it did make me smile. I swear I could hear that squeal thing she did when she got excited about something. :smile:
  • Jennieam
    Jennieam Posts: 300 Member
    Thank you so much for sharing your story. The good news is that for the rest of your life, you'll remember your friend every time you see yourself in the mirror.
  • iHEARTcardiacnurses
    iHEARTcardiacnurses Posts: 437 Member
    Beautiful :flowerforyou:
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