52 pounds and 185 pounds both gone

I had gained a lot of weight and I knew it wasn't fair to my SO. I gained it because I knew he was cheating and I became depressed. But then, I fell into that guilt of feeling like he was cheating because I'd gotten so fat. So about 14 months ago I said "enough" and started working. I've lost 52 pounds and now the other 185 pounds....him.

I'm only sharing this because I want folks to realize weight isn't the be all and end all of a relationship. He was cheating and I knew it. I tried to "fix" it by making him happier and prouder to be with me. I thought we had a great relationship and that my weight was the only big set back. Turned out hed been playing and looking from day one, back when I was the size I am now. You know it's true. Once a cheater, always a cheater.

He's not staying with the married woman he last stepped out with. My guess is that she is no longer an option.

So for me, I'm moving on to exercise. I don't know if there's anyone out there for me. I feel like this man stole 10 years of my
life as I now learn he was playing the field the entire time. (This internet makes it very easy to have distant relationships that
don't pop in at the local grocery story.) But I know now more than ever that this weight loss journey is only about me and getting me better and healthier. I hate to think I'll be spending the rest of my life alone. Right now I feel like I'm on my way to becoming that crazy cat lady. But I know the worst of this will pass. And I hope sincerely that this is the last role I play in life as a doormat.

Just food for thought. And venting.