i don't know if i can do this X( its so difficult

You don't have to run every single day. In fact, taking 1 or 2 days off during the week would be good for you. If you're just starting out with running, it's probably going to be more sustainable if you work up to a goal rather than start out by making yourself do that much.

I don't know how long you've been running.. I'm not sure where you are on your fitness journey, but here's how it went for me: I have always been athletic and strong, even when I was heavy. I began running last year about this time. I had to do C25K, three days a week, but 60 minutes instead of 30. Eventually when I was able to run the whole 3 miles at once crack, we moved up from 3 days a week to four.. then to five.. I could only do about two days in a row at a time, then have a rest day, then a couple more. Otherwise I was utterly exhausted all the time and my workouts began to suffer. It's not worth it, I've got the rest of my life to get/be healthy, I don't need to do it in a hurry. After several months, I could do three days of workouts but needed a rest day. Now I can do six in a row, I take a rest day once a week. By now I'm pretty seasoned, I've put in hundreds and hundreds of miles (I spent six months training for a half marathon, I logged well over 300 miles just training for that), and I also do toning and strength work as well. Keep at your training, but don't get in a hurry. Consistency is the important thing in long term fitness.

Sweetie, pampering in between runs is essential. Even marathon training guides (I like Hal Higdon's online ones) tell the trainees to only run 4 days a week. I personally believe 3 days a week for the non-racer. Instead, if you focus on running better and longer on those 3 runs a week, you will see and feel the improvements. This way the running is a happy thing- something to enjoy (like the time you finally have to yourself)... not a punishment or an obligation.

You can do this. Sounds like you have amazing will power. Please don't be so tough with your schedule... and then bust out those workouts 3x a week, and don't miss a one!

Make your goals attainable, following a plan that you already feel like you can't do is a recipe for disaster.

I agree, start off with smaller goals and work your way up. When I first started working out, my goal was once a week, then twice a week and so on. Know I can go all 7 days with no break if I feel like it.