Back...AGAIN. NEED support.

Hello All...
I'm Charlise, 23 mother to a 3 year old daughter, and wife to an active duty U.S Marine... Here is my story that i feel I need to share...

I got pregnant and married young, I let myself go after having my baby. I was heavy weighing in at 175 before pregnancy and after.

Being married to a marine is hard for many many reasons. In 2010, We went through a tough year and almost split. I started at the gym to get away from the tension and was diagnosed with a mood disorder. I started treatment soon after and things calmed down because he and I began to understand why I was so depressed and moody. I was at the gym every single day after that... I was a new person.

Then my husband got shipped off to Japan in April (just a year after our "tough year" and my mood disorder) for what they said would be a year... I moved home to Ohio with our daughter and was at the gym everyday, getting thinner and stronger. I was a lean 135 lbs by July!! =] I felt good, looked good and it was wonderful. I traveled to Japan to see my husband and didn't gain a lb.

I came home to find that my meds were going to be changed and they did. I couldnt stop the weight from being piled on...I became upset and stopped all meds. Then I became depressed once again, I would workout...but overeat. I also graduated college and started working in an office. Depression, not having my husband around, and a desk job caused more lbs. The lbs kept coming on... and still are.

Im now 157lbs... about 7-8 lbs "overweight".

The doctor switched back my meds, but still not on any meds due to the fact that my husband is returning home (YAY) and we decided to try to get pregnant, and the meds I'm on is to risky for a baby. I'm trying to do this weight lose without the help of my meds to keep me happy and focused. But I've failed all month long... Yet I'm determined to lose this weight and to go back into the person I loved...

Luckly, my husband is very supportive( and home) and is like a human book with all the eating/fitness knowledge one can think of due to the millitary. My husband has suggested ways to keep my hunger from getting the best of me (which is my problem) ... So I'm going to try to do this whole weight lose thing again... It kills me that I let it get so far without "caring" about the weight gain... I'm determined to get this weight off and be proud of who I am again.

Sorry, so long and in detail but I had to get it out so someone can hold me to what I have state....

Good Luck to you all,
Charlise.