starting all over again in a healthier way :)

(i posted this a week ago and i realized it was under the wrong forum. haha fail.)

Hey everyone This is my first time talking about my experience and I'm gonna share it with you so you won't end up in the same situation as I did.

I started using MFP in May earlier this year and stopped when school started in September. MFP did a lot for me, it helped me lose a lot of weight and feel good about myself. The only problem is that I went overboard in dieting and exercising. I spent my whole summer in an unhealthy way of losing weight. My daily caloric intake that time was 700, and I exercised for 2 hrs, 4 times a week. There were even times when my net calories went negative and I felt powerful over myself. I became obsessed with my weight (I used to weigh myself more than once a day) specially when people started noticing my improvements. MFP kept on telling me to raise my daily goal to 1,200 because I would go into "starvation mode" but I didn't care. Then one moment I've suddenly developed an eating disorder. I'm pretty sure it's not bulimia because I don't purge, but I do restrict myself from food, feel guilty, binge, and the pattern goes on.

I lost tons of weight from my extreme method, from 123 to 102. Then I suddenly stopped tracking my diet and exercise last September because I couldn't balance my studies and weight loss at the same time. Another thing that made me stop my delusional way is when I realized I've not been having my period for months. So I ditched MFP and tried to do it by myself but failed. I gained some weight as a result of over restricting myself from food and exercising too much. My pants are starting to tighten again and I started seeing fats in the worst parts of my body (thighs, legs, hips, bellow belly button, arms).

Right now I weigh 108 lbs. This morning when I woke up I told myself I'm gonna start over again-- this time, in a healthier way of losing weight. My target weight is 98 lbs, which has been my original goal since then. I would've reached 98 lbs back then if I continued my unhealthy way but I can't live forever with just 700 calories a day. I promise myself I'm gonna get my abs back (yes, I had them before HAHA) in a way that my body can keep up with and not shut down. Starting today, I'm gonna get back on track. I'm gonna watch my calories with a 1,200 daily goal, exercise 2-3 times a week for 30 minutes, weigh myself weekly, and be positive on my outlook in life.