If I want this so bad why have I lost my motivation :-( ????

It's normal. I go through that same slump almost every winter. The best way to overcome is to plan and then execute... plan your meals and your workouts and just do it......if you miss/skip fail one... don't think that you have ruined ALL of your work and so keep on eating poorly or skipping workouts until you can be 'perfect'. The motivation will return.... just start with something.... somewhere... and keep adding until you are 'perfect' again.

The fact that you posted this I think shows that you want to do this and is a step in getting back on track!

What motivated you in the first place? I have done the jump on jump off more times then I care to admit! (but I do) I have pics of me on my phone/and frig of me at my highest and at my smallest..... The real kick in my butt is if I would have stuck with it I would already be where I should be so jumping off has done nothing but hurt me.

The longer you wait to get back on track the longer it is going to take you to get where you want to be. Don't let your hard work you have done so far go to waste!

Everyone has been so supportive, I'm going to be scientific.

Winter causes us to hide indoors and the result is a decrease in vitamin D which has been linked to depression. Perhaps check your vitamin D levels with your doctor? I had to increase my supplement for the winter because I was getting mopey. Mopey=snacky=uh oh.

I read an article the other day about weight loss habits. It takes 5 weeks to make things a habit. The holidays ruined your habits. It happens. You've got to start over with rebuilding those habits and I know you can and will -- otherwise you wouldn't be seeking support right now. So... start over. Rebuild those habits. It won't be easy, but it will be worth it and YOU'RE worth it. :happy:

This is normal and why most people fail.
You are at a cross roads with a major decision to make.
How bad do you really want to be fit vs fat?

To see this through, look deep inside and answer for yourself:
Why do I want to be fit?
And attach great pleasure to that as you set this goal.

And then answer for yourself this:
Why don't I want to be fat?
Attach great pain to all the reasons you do not want to be fat.

Few people can actually do this which is why most people fail.
This is the key to internal motivation.

Many, many good posts. But this one hit home for me. I was where you are not too long ago. I'd walk out of the gym at night thinking "Why am I doing this? What is the reason?" For me it's easy to slip back into the "fat thinking". It was time to do some soul searching and get back to it.

As others have said, it isn't a easy journey and most often it's a lonely journey. But is it worth it? Your bet your *ss it is! Even when you don't feel like eating right, exercising, drinking water - just do it.

Just thought of this - Softball season is just around the corner (company softball co-ed team). When I can out run all the women and most of the men (some 20 years younger than me) - is it worth it?? :laugh: You bet!