Still can't believe it!

Helloooo...!!!! I'm posting two pounds earlier than I promised myself I had to have before I could post in here, but I'm going to post here anyway!!!!

The only thing that I'm having a hard time with is that I REALLY can't believe the ticker! I can't believe any of it! I get on and off the scale about 4 times and even after seeing the same numbers, I still can't believe it!!!!

I can't believe I'm ACTUALLY losing weight. After starting and giving up SO many times and trying really stupid fads and easy way outs...I'm actually DOING IT!!! The numbers keep going down and I'm trying to pinch myself because I don't feel any different. Well, I mean, I don't feel any lighter or really feel like I've LOST 8 pounds but I DO feel different! Even though nobody's said that I look any different, they've noticed a change in my attitude (about exercise and dieting and eating well and my attitude and outlook on just life in general). I'm wondering what I used to be like before, but people keep telling me that I seem to be in a better mood lately, I seem more relaxed and more laid-back! Health-wise, I've noticed that I'm sleeping better, getting up early and having the actual ENERGY to haul myself out of bed...I don't have to stop in the middle of a meal and rush to the bathroom (sorry if that's TMI...*LOL*) I don't have crazy tummy aches after I eat, I don't feel like I want greasy good to make me feel better...I work out instead of raid the fridge when I'm bored...I feel GOOD.

Have you ever had those dreams that feel SO real? I dreamt once that I was given the ENTIRE Barbie collection of every single Barbie ever made (I didn't say dreams were all that realistic...I haven't wanted a barbie since I was like, 8) but the dream felt SO real that when I woke up, I was actually looking for the Barbies!!! I feel like I'm totally rambling but I still feel like one day I'm going to wake up and find out I was just DREAMING about losing weight and really I'm still at 174.8.

I think half the reason I feel this way is that after the first couple of days feeling like it was HARD, eating right, choosing healthier foods and getting my butt to the gym, or out for a walk or jog, or turning on the Wii Active is EASY. Doing these things is EASY. It doesn't ask too much of and it doesn't take much. I don't have to do anything EXTRA or do anything crazy. And that's probably what's weirding me out even more...that it's easy for me to choose not to get a donut or a cupcake and instead think if I REALLY need it or if it's really worth it and then decide that I DON"T need it and that it's NOT worth it.

Anywho...I've been going on and on....this is the first time I've really lost any weight of any kind since I've put it all on and I'm just over the moon!!! I KNOW MFP has been a REALLY BIG part of how I can keep doing this and I just wanted to say THANKS to the people who started it and THANKS to the people who have given words of encouragement, commiseration, advice and inspiration with your own success stories! Without sounding even MORE like a long, irritating Academy Awards thank you speech...YAY US!