First timer...

I've never used one of these websites before so this is all pretty new to me. I have always been a "big girl" and i have always carried myself as if it never effected me. My weight is constantly going up and down and i guess after 30yrs on this earth u just get used to it. Lately it's been getting worse and worse. I recently injured my back at work and ended up with 3 herniated disks and to top it all off last week when I went back to the specialist he said he thinks I may have done even more damage to it! Can a girl get a break!! Nope, not this girl. I can't excerise in the way I would love to but I am going to make the effort to atleast do something. Walking and bending are a real task for me so its all upper body for this girl! Its time that I take my life back for me! NO MORE EXCUSES! I really don't care what others think of me its how I see myself and how I feel that bothers me. I admit there are days that I cry. Days that I wish I could just go to a doctor and have him "suck" it all out, but that is a quick fix and thats not what I want. So today we begin this journey together.. I know there will be a lot of ups and down but I promise they will not win. I have the strenght to do this for myself.. I will not allow myself to fail again.......