Gaining, Gaining, and still GAINING! Wth.

I am watching what I eat, counting my calories, eating a special K protein bar for breakfast & lunch while I'm at work on my break and then I eat when I get home. Usually it's something like healthy choice soup/stew or smart ones dinners when I'm feeling like it's too late to cook. I bought fresh veggies & cut them all up and have been snacking on those and low cal popcorn. I switched my soda to diet and I rarely drink anything that isn't 0 cal. I take a vitamin daily and I was feeling good about myself because after I had the flu I had lost 6 pounds (not in a pretty way) and I kept losing so I lost another 2 after that from calorie counting. Today, I stepped on the scale after about 2 weeks and I've gained it all back. My clothes haven't gotten tighter. I don't *look* much bigger but the numbers on the scale are shooting up and I've noticed my breasts are getting bigger and busting out of my bras. I don't know why I'd be gaining weight in *that* department but it's better than my gut I guess. I'm frustrated because I was on the right track and losing then suddenly it just reversed and started going up. When I hit 185, I stall. I stall and stall and its hard to get past it. That's my bodies stopping point. I've already lost 85 pounds and my body won't let me keep going past there. I finally got down to 175 last year but after a divorce and a stressful move of 1,000 miles I went back to 185. Thats where I was until today, where I am at 190 again. I'm 5'11 and have a pretty moderate build with a 38E chest so 190 doesn't look terrible on me, but I'm aiming for 160 or 165 and I swear, after 3 years I just cant get my body to drop the weight anymore. I spend my entire work day walking and standing (I work at walmart in the electronics department, there is no standing around) and I have a 3 year old I chase around and balance on my knees for fun. I even do a workout on the kinect once in a while but it seems like there's some extenuating factor that has me gaining steadily and I can't figure out what it is. I'm ready to give up but I know that won't get me anywhere except back to big girl land where I was 262 lbs after my pregnancy. Any ideas as to why I'm gaining this way?

This might be TMI but I have the implanon and I have read reviews of it making weight loss harder. I have also thought that maybe since I'm feeling pms like and it's about that time of the month but I don't actually *get* a period, that it could be a lot of water weight? Any input on this?? Feel free to add me or check out my blog at http://cyanidesarah.wordpress.com/.


Sarah