Fat forever

I've been fat since about 3 or four. I had one or 2 "less fat" years, but for the majority of my 29 years I've been VERY overweight. (Clinically obese really.) I know that it's my fault, but lately I've been trying really good and still not succeeding. I'm praying that God will show me why.

I had 4 wonderful years of being fit. At 5'7" I was 148. I was lean, strong and dammit... cute. *sniff* I felt great, I was comfortable and pain-free for the first time in my life. I will be there again. Ok, I'm older now... maybe I won't be that cute... but I will be in my size 8 Levi's!

I was always a little overweight, but then became an athlete in my early twenties (karate) I'm pretty sure in retrospect that I was exercise bulimic.

Then, stress, illness and the end of puberty officially hit and I got big. And I stayed big.

Now that I'm not big anymore, I think that my brain hasn't caught up to the transformation in my body. Every once in a while I'm shocked by my own reflection, etc. It's strange, and I think that it might be part of why so many people who lose weight gain it back. When you first become smaller, at least in my experience, you feel "naked" (can't think of how else to explain it) without your extra weight. All of a sudden, you're not invisible to others, and it's a shock. I still look at my "virtual model" doo-dad all the time. I practically meditate on it, saying to myself "this is how I appear to others". But, enough of my weirdness. I just think that the psychological part of reaching the goal weight is something I wish someone had told me about when I was losing. :flowerforyou:

For some of us there will never be "skinny jeans" there will just be jeans that we look really good in. I think losing weight is more about getting into a healthy BMI and just feeling good about yourself. Execise is so important because it helps you lose inches as well as weight. I found that out in the first 3-4 weeks when I lost no weight but I did lose inches. Those of us that have been big all of our lives need to come to terms with the fact that we are never going to be a size 6 but we can look REALLY good and that's great! Some people are born with great metabolisms and some are not. Those of us that are not have to work really hard to look our best and though it sucks it is possible. Just think of it as a challenge instead of a chore....it's helped me THIS time. lol forget the "skinny jeans" and just think how good you're going to look at say....even 130 or 140 pounds good luck

I'm just curious---I've been overweight since I was 5 years old. I've noticed a lot of people on here who are trying to lose weight that they've had since they had a baby, since they go married, etc. Are there a lot of people out there who don't know what it's like to be thin?

The reason I'm asking is because I don't have anything to compare myself to. I don't have skinny jeans, and I never bought a "when I'm thin" outfit, because I was never sure when I would get there. I have no concept of what I might look like at my ideal weight. I don't even know what my ideal weight might be! The BMI calculator says between 94 and 127 pounds (I'm five feet tall.) That is a pretty damn big difference! Who knows where the hell I'm gonna end up!

Thoughts???

I'm in the same boat. the lowest that I can remember my weight being is 172, but that was waaaaaaaaaay back in high school. I don't know what it's like to be a "normal weight". I guess we will just have to wait and see.

I'm just looking forward to losing some more weight and buying new clothes!

I've been overweight all my life. When I was in 8th grade I was 145 pounds and when I graduated high school I hit the 179 pound mark. It wasn't because I was big boned or puberty set in, it was because my family was on a fast food diet and my father had no shame in giving me 20 piece chicken mcnuggets for lunch when I was in the 6th grade and taco bell for dinner.

After I graduated high school I slimmed down to 125 and I had _no idea_ what to do with my weight. I didn't know what size clothes fit me and I remember walking into Torrid and wondering why everything was so big. I didn't realize how thin I was until laying in bed and seeing a hip bone.

I thought I was destined to be fat forever but cancer changed all of that. Now I'm 143 but I miss being super thin.

You're not destined to be fat, trust me.

For years I have always thought I was ALWAYS fat. But now, looking back at some old pictures, I wasn't so big, at least not compared to now. But I was ALWAYS told by an abusive step father "if I was as fat as you I would hide in the closet". So I grew up thinking I was fat. Not once in my life have I ever thought I was the right size. Had I only known then what I know now about being fat, boy would I do things differently!!!!!

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