Bingeing and Purging

I don't purge, but I binge. I've only become aware of it in the past few years, but I've been obese all of my life, and I do recall it happening when I was younger. No big life trauma caused it for me. Just a lot of perpetual anxiety and self-esteem issues that I'm trying to work through now. Talking to a professional is almost always helpful. It can be uncomfortable and unnerving at first, but it will only help in the long run.

((hugs)) i am very sorry for what happened to you as an innocent child.
i highly suggest professional help- there are org.'s and groups that will help you no cost- seek them out. you need more help (through NO fault of your own) than strangers over internet are capable of providing for you. you know you are not in a good place and becoming more enmeshed in destructive behavior- use that self awareness to drive yourself to get real help, k?

Here's a group that you might be interested in, dear.

http://www.myfitnesspal.com/groups/home/906-survivors-of-childhood-sexual-abuse

I am so sorry you had to go through that type of abuse. You are right you do need to talk with someone, but when you are ready to you will. Until then, I am glad you opened up. It takes a lot for a person to admit when they need help, it takes even more to accept help from others. I believe you can do it, don't give up, when we fail we just try again, but always believe in yourself. Stay strong

Hey hon. I am so sorry this happened to you!

Bulemia is a very serious psychological condition. I think you are best seeking professional therapy for this and working through your mental reasons rather than focusing on the symptoms (the binging and purging).

There's no shame in asking for the help you need.

I wish you nothing but the best.

This.

I am in recovery from an eating disorder. I have had all eating disorders, including bulimia for many, many years. It was very extreme and I binged and purged all the time. I am happy to be out of that now, as I thought I would never be able to get better. Have you ever been in therapy?

I have not been to therapy I know I need to go but I just can't bring myself to do it at the moment. The weird thing is, If I eat healthy and within my calorie limits I don't want to puke but if I binge I do.

Are you able to eat healthy and within your limits? If so, do you still have the urge to binge and purge when you eat 'normally' or do you restrict and then later have the urge to binge and purge?

Hello First of all, you are so brave, and I'm so sorry for everything that you've been through, no one deserves that.

Second, I am a diagnosed bulimic. I have been through the recovery process (although it failed; as I didn't truly understand it), and I think ink order for you to overcome this, you need to do the same.
Purging in this case, is a result of the binging, so the first step is stopping the binges. People binge for all kinds of reasons, and you've already stated yours. It will be painful, but you have to address the root of the problem. Recovery also relies a lot on self acceptance - we're all human, we all binge. Everyone has one of those days, it's just some people react to it differently than others. We have to go "it's fine, it's happened, and tomorrow's a new day, so I'm going to put myself to bed now, and just be calm about it', or whatever remedy works for you - for me, sleep solves a lot, and keeps bad things at bay.
Binging can happen out of habit - if your abuser would give you food, that's what you're used to. I think one big thing about MFP is just how many people are here to absolutely change their lives, and that's what it's going to take - a huge break from routine, and what is 'normal' for you.
I think one of the best things for you to do, is to just figure out why you binge, what brings the urges on, and how you can successfully combat them. For me, I have to get myself out of the house - if I feel a binge coming on, I don't want to take any chances. I go for a walk, sometimes shopping (though this is a more expensive form of therapy haha!), head to the gym, or find something to keep me really busy. Playing an online game, knitting, or calling a friend up - keep your hands and mind busy. Writing down feelings in a journal, diary, or blog, can help figure out what emotions or instances trigger binges. Once you put your finger on it, you'll be able to see the cause, and figure out a solution.

I wish you all the best! If you ever need anyone, myself, and I'm sure any of the MFP community, are here to support you in any way possible

Oh sorry to hear about your childhood lovely.

Well, I used to binge and purge. Not frequently. But I did do it a few times.
I just sat and realised that it was wrong. It kinda just clicked.

I guess the only way to do it is to keep trying. And even if you fail, don't beat your self up about it. Just keep trying. One day you'll get there x

What a stunningly inspirational group of people you are ...wonderful ... you are all truly wonderful ,honest, courageous over-comers x x